MemberHello to everyone and hope we are all doing good
I'm not the best writer or putting my feelings into words so I apologise if this is scatted.
Only had T little over 2 months and I feel a bit of a fraud as mine is not as bad as a good few of you.... it's still one of the worse things I have dealt with. Never thought "noise" in my ears could be so rough.
Haven't had the easiest of lives as many people don't and thought I was emotionally strong till this struck me outa nowhere and felt like it utterly destroyed my soul.
I've had so many ups and downs with this and don't think I've cried as much even when I lost my parents, it's hard to describe how much this has taken over my life. I'm scared to do anything or leave my house, lost my appetite and haven't had a good nights sleep since this (didn't sleep much anyway)
It's so strange that this "noise" takes over your every bit of your life, being, mental health.
The strange thing is I honestly didn't think I could not get through this and I'm still not sure if I can but I went for a meal last night and wore my ear plugs...... guess what it didn't kill me!
I know other people suffer with H as well so everyday noises can affect them on another level, but me going out for a few hours with my partner as given me a boost and hope.
Today I feel like this is not gunna take over my life and I will beat it....
I need to keep hope inside me and think this will go away one day and even if it doesn't I will learn to live with it and not let it take over my life. If I don't try to think like this and stay postive I may well lose the will to live and I'm not prepared to do that.
To quote a song that inspired me when I was younger and lost my parents
"Well there's a bridge and there's a river that I still must cross
As I'm going on my journey
Oh, I might be lost
And there's a road I have to follow, a place I have to go
Well no-one told me just how to get there
But when I get there I'll know
Cause I'm taking it
Step By Step, Bit by Bit,
Stone By Stone (Yeah), Brick by Brick (Oh, yeah)
Step By Step, Day By Day, Mile by mile (ooh, ooh, ooh)
And this old road is rough and ruined
So many dangers along the way
So many burdens might fall upon me
So many troubles that I have to face
Oh, but I won't let my spirit fail me
Oh, I won't let my spirit go
Until I get to my destination"
Not the biggest Whitney Houston fan.... but found this song somehow helpful.
Anyway I could wake up tomorrow and feel so lost and lonely and just want to cry, if that happens I'll let it take it's course and not let it beat me. I know I'm gunna feel like absolute s*** some days and I need to try and make myself know that's ok and it's not the end of the world and I'll get through it.
I know some people don't like the word " hope" but you know what that's all that's keeping me going and I'm trying to smile a lot more as well. Hopefully one day there will be a cure and help so many lost and hurt people.
I want to genuinely want to thank everyone who has written posts on here, replied to my questions and worries and other people's as well. I know many posts of different worried people and subjects have been written many many times but the majority seem not to even care and still answer which I think is such a good and positive thing.
I appreciate everybody's point of view wether it be postive or negative because sometimes you just want to rant and not feel postive and that's ok, as long as you don't let it take over.
This forum has helped me a lot and is so important as you know there are other people feeling the same as you and there's somebody who will give you hope, advice and a good dose of reality.
Even in the darkest times you need to find that little bit of light as cheesy as that sounds, you do what you feels best and helps make you get through this "hell" as long as it's not harming you more and always reach out if your feeling down, lost, lonely and know you'll never be alone. Wether it's talking to people on here or family and friends just don't try to do this on your own.
Just try and be nice to each other even when you don't feel like it.
Please don't give up hope and try to take things step by step, bit by bit.
I'm not the best writer or putting my feelings into words so I apologise if this is scatted.
Only had T little over 2 months and I feel a bit of a fraud as mine is not as bad as a good few of you.... it's still one of the worse things I have dealt with. Never thought "noise" in my ears could be so rough.
Haven't had the easiest of lives as many people don't and thought I was emotionally strong till this struck me outa nowhere and felt like it utterly destroyed my soul.
I've had so many ups and downs with this and don't think I've cried as much even when I lost my parents, it's hard to describe how much this has taken over my life. I'm scared to do anything or leave my house, lost my appetite and haven't had a good nights sleep since this (didn't sleep much anyway)
It's so strange that this "noise" takes over your every bit of your life, being, mental health.
The strange thing is I honestly didn't think I could not get through this and I'm still not sure if I can but I went for a meal last night and wore my ear plugs...... guess what it didn't kill me!
I know other people suffer with H as well so everyday noises can affect them on another level, but me going out for a few hours with my partner as given me a boost and hope.
Today I feel like this is not gunna take over my life and I will beat it....
I need to keep hope inside me and think this will go away one day and even if it doesn't I will learn to live with it and not let it take over my life. If I don't try to think like this and stay postive I may well lose the will to live and I'm not prepared to do that.
To quote a song that inspired me when I was younger and lost my parents
"Well there's a bridge and there's a river that I still must cross
As I'm going on my journey
Oh, I might be lost
And there's a road I have to follow, a place I have to go
Well no-one told me just how to get there
But when I get there I'll know
Cause I'm taking it
Step By Step, Bit by Bit,
Stone By Stone (Yeah), Brick by Brick (Oh, yeah)
Step By Step, Day By Day, Mile by mile (ooh, ooh, ooh)
And this old road is rough and ruined
So many dangers along the way
So many burdens might fall upon me
So many troubles that I have to face
Oh, but I won't let my spirit fail me
Oh, I won't let my spirit go
Until I get to my destination"
Not the biggest Whitney Houston fan.... but found this song somehow helpful.
Anyway I could wake up tomorrow and feel so lost and lonely and just want to cry, if that happens I'll let it take it's course and not let it beat me. I know I'm gunna feel like absolute s*** some days and I need to try and make myself know that's ok and it's not the end of the world and I'll get through it.
I know some people don't like the word " hope" but you know what that's all that's keeping me going and I'm trying to smile a lot more as well. Hopefully one day there will be a cure and help so many lost and hurt people.
I want to genuinely want to thank everyone who has written posts on here, replied to my questions and worries and other people's as well. I know many posts of different worried people and subjects have been written many many times but the majority seem not to even care and still answer which I think is such a good and positive thing.
I appreciate everybody's point of view wether it be postive or negative because sometimes you just want to rant and not feel postive and that's ok, as long as you don't let it take over.
This forum has helped me a lot and is so important as you know there are other people feeling the same as you and there's somebody who will give you hope, advice and a good dose of reality.
Even in the darkest times you need to find that little bit of light as cheesy as that sounds, you do what you feels best and helps make you get through this "hell" as long as it's not harming you more and always reach out if your feeling down, lost, lonely and know you'll never be alone. Wether it's talking to people on here or family and friends just don't try to do this on your own.
Just try and be nice to each other even when you don't feel like it.
Please don't give up hope and try to take things step by step, bit by bit.
