I will not bore everyone with my whole story, because it is long.
Either way, I got some medium and low sounds from stopping benzodiazepines during a burnout six years ago. At the same time, I developed a high-pitched sound after starting Mirtazapine. I do not think Mirtazapine itself was the cause, but rather that my body was too exhausted to handle it. I went absolutely bonkers during the initial phase.
Eventually, I habituated after a good six months, and life was decent.
Then life took a turn, and I experienced another burnout, which I have not been able to recover from. I cannot look at my phone for longer than a few minutes without getting overstimulated.
But the high-pitched sound has increased so much. It is a very loud dentist drill sound that goes over everything. A jet plane would not even drown it out. And I obviously cannot mask it because of hyperacusis.
So yes, I am forced to listen to it 24/7. If I get too overstimulated, my head explodes with pain, the kind of pain that makes you cry, and everything gets worse.
But I cannot relax. When I try, the sound is just too loud, and anxiety gets the best of me. I do not last an hour before I grab my phone for distraction, which keeps the cycle going. Yet I need complete relaxation to recover from this burnout.
I am tempted to try benzodiazepines to see if they can help with burnout recovery. But that is a big gamble.
I cannot even take Lemon Balm without massive rebound effects that make me feel like I am dying.
So yes, my life sucks right now. My only choice is to habituate, but it has become so loud that it does not seem possible.
Either way, I got some medium and low sounds from stopping benzodiazepines during a burnout six years ago. At the same time, I developed a high-pitched sound after starting Mirtazapine. I do not think Mirtazapine itself was the cause, but rather that my body was too exhausted to handle it. I went absolutely bonkers during the initial phase.
Eventually, I habituated after a good six months, and life was decent.
Then life took a turn, and I experienced another burnout, which I have not been able to recover from. I cannot look at my phone for longer than a few minutes without getting overstimulated.
But the high-pitched sound has increased so much. It is a very loud dentist drill sound that goes over everything. A jet plane would not even drown it out. And I obviously cannot mask it because of hyperacusis.
So yes, I am forced to listen to it 24/7. If I get too overstimulated, my head explodes with pain, the kind of pain that makes you cry, and everything gets worse.
But I cannot relax. When I try, the sound is just too loud, and anxiety gets the best of me. I do not last an hour before I grab my phone for distraction, which keeps the cycle going. Yet I need complete relaxation to recover from this burnout.
I am tempted to try benzodiazepines to see if they can help with burnout recovery. But that is a big gamble.
I cannot even take Lemon Balm without massive rebound effects that make me feel like I am dying.
So yes, my life sucks right now. My only choice is to habituate, but it has become so loud that it does not seem possible.
