Tinnitus All Over the Place

My T is so confusing! I thought it had gone today so went outside for a cigarette and bam there it was loud and proud, it hit me hard, I really thought it was gone.
I hate this, my old life seems to be gone, i guess its seems mild to most people on here, but i thought i wa on top of things, i have disabled children too and thought we were doing ok, and then this hit!
No sleep, No food, anxious, just bloody fed up. I just want to habituate so I can get on with life.

 

Sorry to hear that bendy us, hope u feel better soon.