I'm a 19-year old boy and thought I must share my story since I haven't really told about my tinnitus to anyone. It started in last August. We had a band, got together just a few months earlier. We were going to play our first gig, in a family event where the music wasn't loud at all. That's probably what tricked me to not use ear protection on stage. We had just a 15-minute set but very quickly I realised the monitoring was loud as hell and drums played right by my side. Okay, I fucked up.
Had weird feelings in my ears for a couple days/weeks, TTTS I'd say. But tinnitus was there to stay. I saw an audiologist and had my hearing checked and there was no noticeable damage, that's good at least.
Luckily my tinnitus was on a mild level and only in my right ear. It pretty much disappeared whenever hearing any sounds so I was usually able to go full days without noticing.
But every night in bed I remember it and the regrettal hits me: can't get over how stupid I was that one day. Sometimes I also tend to get pain in my ears and have to constantly fear for them, that's why I can't enjoy music exactly as much as before.
This week I did some workouts and suddenly the tinnitus got worse, to both ears and brought fullness in my ears back. It has scared me a bit: will my ears now feel like this forever? Worst is definitely the uncertainty about the future.
I know my situation could be a lot worse: I could've lost some of my hearing or my tinnitus could be a lot louder. And I definitely will remember to always wear earplugs from now on. Also, it would be amazing if I didn't constantly blame myself for what I did as I can't go back in time. Any tips to get rid of the regrettal?
Had weird feelings in my ears for a couple days/weeks, TTTS I'd say. But tinnitus was there to stay. I saw an audiologist and had my hearing checked and there was no noticeable damage, that's good at least.
Luckily my tinnitus was on a mild level and only in my right ear. It pretty much disappeared whenever hearing any sounds so I was usually able to go full days without noticing.
But every night in bed I remember it and the regrettal hits me: can't get over how stupid I was that one day. Sometimes I also tend to get pain in my ears and have to constantly fear for them, that's why I can't enjoy music exactly as much as before.
This week I did some workouts and suddenly the tinnitus got worse, to both ears and brought fullness in my ears back. It has scared me a bit: will my ears now feel like this forever? Worst is definitely the uncertainty about the future.
I know my situation could be a lot worse: I could've lost some of my hearing or my tinnitus could be a lot louder. And I definitely will remember to always wear earplugs from now on. Also, it would be amazing if I didn't constantly blame myself for what I did as I can't go back in time. Any tips to get rid of the regrettal?
