GBB

I want a full week without being a wraith. Good sleep, energy, contentedness, happily anticipating tomorrow - we are barred these things.

Benzo veterans, at what point do you start considering regular benzo use? I’m at 6 months and 5/7 days/week I still have no intrinsic joy.

Xanax is king.

After much delay, starting Paul Stamets Protocol today.

So 6 months in my EEEEE has changed almost exclusively to a much lower pitched WAAAAAAAA. Anyone else with similar experiences?

This is one of the lowest days I've ever had - no idea why or how, but god it feels good to be momentarily "normal".

I had a good start to the day, and now it sounds like a storm is literally going off in my brain and my ears are pulsing. Really down :(

I read today ginkgo is a GABA *antagonist* - no wonder it spikes T?!

Does anyone else not get H pain but instead get H itch/tickle? It feels like I wanna scratch my cochlea but can't.

I’ve returned to remote work and I’m doing a good job. It’s difficult but I tune out the loud T. The hard part for me is no relaxation.

I wonder if I'll ever be one of those people who can only hear it at night.

I'm hitting 6 months in two more weeks. There are good days but there are also days that are still so hard...

Day 2 of spike from my dad dropping a huge thing of firewood inside our house. I don't wanna keep doing this...

My dad dropped a cord of wood today which made a huge boom, resulting in nausea inducing volume tinnitus for me.

Keep getting woken up by tinnitus recently...

I am at a fixed point from which I watch healthy people pass and fade out of sight. I am in the world, but it is no longer accessible to me.

I am self-aware - I know the inconsistency of my posts makes me seem a little nuts - it's just the reality of my T changes so drastically.

I've just been in one big range for 5 months. Every month I have a better period where I think I reach an inflection point but it's fake...

Ears feeling sunburned on the inside.

Dr put me on cyclobenzaprine and methylprednisolone for my back pain. Anyone know if this can mess with T? I imagine the answer is yes.

Bad spike yesterday after driving with hearing protection. I thought I was just in a stage of discomfort but still fighting for my life...

Having lots of trouble getting to sleep after driving today. Looks like spike was a bit delayed...

I have Keppra. Anyone with experience as it relates to spikes e.g. preventing them?

Had to drive about 45 min to the doctor today on the highway. Used earplugs and Peltor but still spiking. Hoping it is short-lived.

Pretty good 3-4 day streak ended today. Mostly tssss/tcccch noise continually over everything all day. Exhausting.

Definite improvement in day time volume and decreased perception in noisy environments, but in silence it still gets super loud.

5 months at 12/25 - I've learned to cycle Kava and Xanax to cope, but baseline has only marginally improved. Nights are still about as bad.

@katri how could that be bad

I really dislike people on here who tell others T is fine but then say they've been in hell for many decades.

Most annoying Tinnitus sound is this low pulsing - I've timed it at 6 pulses per second. Cmon...