GBB

Woke up to the quietest morning yet. Am sitting in a carpeted room, no windows open, no electronics running, and I feel okay. Hope it lasts.

My T is now "head noise" for the first time. I think this is easier because it doesn't seem like it's in my actual ear. Is this good or bad?

Pramipexole has softened the character of my tinnitus and made it easier to put into background. Problem is it only works so for so long.

Musical ear syndrome confirmed. I listened to Mozart for 1 hr, and after stopping, I still hear vague violins, like someone in another room.

Shakespeare characters I identify with: Lear and Ophelia.

Inflection point - I've gone from feeling like steady tones are going to kill me to feeling like I have schizophrenia and am going mad.

Massive spike from driving to neurologist and noisy office visit. This is so loud I can hear it clearly outside. Please give me relief.

My tinnitus is like pro level - all these scrubs think they have T but they just have ᵀ. If you're on T talk you're in the big leagues.

Like all of the random rapid pinging demands attention, you can't tune it out sort of like you would a steady tone.

Having more days with no steady tones e.g. EEE and more with a ton of pings every second - it's quieter but sort of harder to wade through.

For all my bilateral peeps who know what the true struggle is, like to sow unnecessary division with our unilateral comrades.

Does anyone else's T have a distinct texture? Mine is sort of like if you walk up to a noisy cricket and listen, at close range you feel it.

I think I have musical ear syndrome instead of normal T, so in prior centuries I’d prob be burned at the stake, or hailed as a prophet.

I’m like that character in war movies who says he can’t wait to see his girl back home, but a sniper is already dialed in on my skull.

Starting a manukah honey, cinnamon, apple cider vinegar protocol because, why not, I’m living in a hotel and my life is bullshit.

New hypothesis is that damaged/inflamed nerves are providing some input the brain isn’t used to, and brain is off balance.

The first month or so was a constant high pitch piercing squeal and now it’s like a computer program of stock sci-fi noises.

Noises keep cycling - sometimes high pitch, sometimes low, sometimes continuous, sometimes pulsing, sometimes both ears, sometimes just one.

Tinnitus sounds like if you could rub metal on metal to create a harsher version of finger on top of a wine glass. Ears are stupid.

I hear an air tire noise - pfffffff - in my right ear. Please god let this be a permanent shift. It feels like heaven.

I’m on a rollercoaster - last night so loud I could hear it outside, today so quiet it’s largely masked inside. Let me off.

It sounds like a circular saw cutting through a metal beam...

I miss naps...

Now the sound is like a sea of metal rice grains being poured over one another - largely atonal - still loud in silence - still can't nap...

Tinnitus seems to be changing. I seem to have lost the EEEEEEEE of the first two months, except for when I put on Peltor.

The thing about having a good day - particularly a drug-induced good day - is I am terrified of tomorrow. Severe T is heartbreaking.

Dysacusis/distortion is still very much present and everything has a grating squeak to it.

Almost hear silence today - I get this more often recently - but it feels so fragile. I feel inanimate. Maybe I have PTSD.

Does anyone else experience “fake” silence? When most tones temporarily disappear and you realize there is still one underlying...sucks

My tinnitus sounds like a brassy wall of ultra-high pitched frequencies.