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@DaveFromChicago I believe they are trialing it at NYU or Columbia in NYC. I provided a comment to my previous post with a link.

@convolution, if you're absolutely certain its not mental, you should know they are trialing oxytocin as a T treatment, aka the love hormone

@kingsfan just to provide a data point, Xanax does lower my volume, but I've never tried other benzos. My cause is acoustic trauma.

Time to try a new round of hail mary plays - shrooms, PRP, Lenire, longer fasting, ketamine and others on my list. Hard to procure but YOLO.

I know absolute humility - there is no lower state than chronic suffering and seeing disgust/fear/revulsion on the faces of your family

I tried to talk to my mom because I'm spiking, and she said she can't always help me and went to bed. I'm so low my parents recoil...

Tinnitus today sounds like a hurricane wind is howling, shaking chain link fences in my head, and someone is using a vacuum nearby.

I have two different, mutually exclusive conditions. Tsss noise which is like a gap in hearing, unmaskable; tones which are maskable. Why?

Can we agree there is a dimension to T beyond volume, sort of like intensity? I've had loud but "dilute" T and quieter but "piercing" T.

Tough night tonight after a few good days. Trying to hang in there.

In case anyone wants a data point, my T started as a screech / eeee and is now much lower pitch 90% of the time. Somewhat less volume.

Habituation seems no closer and every day is really a genuine battle.

It’s been 6 months and I’m scared my mental health is still declining. I feel worn, like my body and my brain are damaged.

I want a full week without being a wraith. Good sleep, energy, contentedness, happily anticipating tomorrow - we are barred these things.

Benzo veterans, at what point do you start considering regular benzo use? I’m at 6 months and 5/7 days/week I still have no intrinsic joy.

Xanax is king.

After much delay, starting Paul Stamets Protocol today.

So 6 months in my EEEEE has changed almost exclusively to a much lower pitched WAAAAAAAA. Anyone else with similar experiences?

This is one of the lowest days I've ever had - no idea why or how, but god it feels good to be momentarily "normal".

I had a good start to the day, and now it sounds like a storm is literally going off in my brain and my ears are pulsing. Really down :(

I read today ginkgo is a GABA *antagonist* - no wonder it spikes T?!

Does anyone else not get H pain but instead get H itch/tickle? It feels like I wanna scratch my cochlea but can't.

I’ve returned to remote work and I’m doing a good job. It’s difficult but I tune out the loud T. The hard part for me is no relaxation.

I wonder if I'll ever be one of those people who can only hear it at night.

I'm hitting 6 months in two more weeks. There are good days but there are also days that are still so hard...

Day 2 of spike from my dad dropping a huge thing of firewood inside our house. I don't wanna keep doing this...

My dad dropped a cord of wood today which made a huge boom, resulting in nausea inducing volume tinnitus for me.

Keep getting woken up by tinnitus recently...

I am at a fixed point from which I watch healthy people pass and fade out of sight. I am in the world, but it is no longer accessible to me.

I am self-aware - I know the inconsistency of my posts makes me seem a little nuts - it's just the reality of my T changes so drastically.