Lynny

No airconditioner at work anymore:( makes it difficult to focus

Productive week. School 5 days and work on evenings and Saturdays. Filling my days with things to do and background noise.

It’s not the anxiety, it’s literally the SOUND that bothers me! Wish people would take the direct effect of T more seriously

T slowly but steadily getting worse. Distracting and masking. It’s going to be a year ago soon.

Pretty sure there’s a permanent increase. I don’t know what I’m doing wrong. I don’t know what to do.

High pitched hiss in left ear after a cold. I really hope this goes away, it’s not maskable due to its high frequency.

Strange ‘fluttering’ sensations in ear. Also ear pain :(

it feels so weird to be ‘normal’ around others all day and then get major anxiety attacks when I get home

‘Fleeting’ t lasted 5 minutes. So loud I couldn’t hear other people speak. It’s softer now but still there. So scary

T is getting louder and louder

School today. So nervous.

Ok so I bought a new perfume and by day 5 I already can’t smell it anymore? Why does my nOse habituate at the speed of freaking lightning?

School starts tomorrow and I have NO IDEA how the hell I’m going to do it

I need headphones to mask during the day as well now:( never put them inside my ear though.

Annual fireworks outside my window tonight. Reminder to compare my life to now this time next year if I make it until then. Hopefully better

La tristesse durera toujours.

I am never going into a soundproof room again. Ever.

I’m so shellshocked by yesterday I keep getting sick from the anxiety. I can’t imagine ever being able to habituate to THIS

Hearing test today. Couldn’t differentiate ‘computer beeps’ from my own tinnitus. Cried. Went home. Ate pasta. Cried a lot more.

Can’t even hold my phone properly help :(

Horrible shaking and the tuning fork-type tones in my head have gotten at least 25% louder

I spend way too much time on here.. it’s becoming a bad habit

I don’t think I could go through all this again

Turns out I have to get 5 (!) fillings and 5 teeth removed (4 of them wisdom teeth) I’m devastated.

Why must music be SO DAMN LOUD in clothing stores? Are you trying to sell me clothes or Ed Sheeran’s crappy new album?

T has made me homesick even when I’m sitting on my own couch.

Relatively good day at work, I wasn’t thinking of t 24/7. Still really nervous and anxious and sad when I wake up and go to sleep

Dreamt I jumped off a high cliff last night. Woke up with a peaceful feeling for the first time in months. Scared.

New, completely different sound. High pitched hiss, unmaskable so far. Slowly going insane

Sad sad sad