Lynny

Also I lost the job that I got just last year. I was so proud of having accomplished something with t! Sad now

Downloaded a frequency app to make myself get used to horrible sounds. A very desperate attempt at habituation

It’s so loud guys:( I don’t care about all these frequencies anymore I just want the DB-level to be maskable, even just for a SECOND

Right ear sounds like - I want to say a fire alarm but then I might risk a lack of words when it starts sounding even more like a fire alarm

High and unstable ringing in left ear

My hearing’s gone weird. As in, apart from the tinnitus. Everything sounds weird and sounds hurt

Newish symptoms: A low, pressure-like feeling. Fluttering eardrums, especially when I talk (?) & of course another good old increase

I’m on the train and I think I can hear my t through all the rumbling and mechanical sounds. (That’s what? 60db?) Help.

Now known as ‘the girl with the earphones’. But I guess that beats ‘girl in permanent state of serious mental breakdown’

So I literally haven’t stopped masking since one and a half year. There has to be permanent noise around me or I die.

I think there’s a (newish,) bilateral low humming sensation that’s almost pressure-like

There’s such a loneliness in not being able to really share your fear with other people.

Left ear has been completely muffled for two days now. I really hope it’s wax but it might be one-sided deafness :0

Haven’t been sleeping, and when I do tinnitus wakes me up at least five times a night. :(

Also, I’ve been tapering off xanax. There’s been a couple setbacks and I feel like crap but I’m slowly getting closer to getting clean :)

Still coping by masking. I can tolerate almost all noises except the ones in my head.

New higher frequency sound above all the others, it’s been 2 weeks, I’m worried now

Got my first decent mark since t! Still feel like they might’ve mixed up the tests :)

Suddenly lost hearing in left ear, it’s slowly coming back now. Quite a traumatic experience :(

It’s been two months after the spike, still no improvements

Right ear worse than left ear. Although the main sound is relatively low frequency I can now hear it practically everywhere

https://youtu.be/iqw9iJeIlv0 approximately my main tone

Doubled in volume. (Using this as a log)

Loud. Tired.

It’s spike time :’) (..assuming this horrid loudness will eventually subside)

Failed the first test I took since T (but at least I sat through it :)

Dentist appointment tomorrow. Quite worried about spikes :(

This is what it took for me to confirm I am indeed not someone who suffers gracefully

No airconditioner at work anymore:( makes it difficult to focus

Productive week. School 5 days and work in evenings and on Saturdays. Filling my days with things to do and background noise.