What's your problem? We've told you many times that it will take at least a year (and as long as 2-3 years) for you to be completely over it. It never just fades. It always looks like a stock price chart, whith countless retracements. Those episodes of getting worse are a normal part of the recovery. Snap out of it!
I know we don't know each other, but If I could, I would give you a big hug and sit with you a while cause I'm sad too. <3