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@sleepingsiren at least if I could pick my noise. Thanks. I hope it goes away too, or we make it to a future where there is better treatments.

I'm just really depressed. There is this girl I like that I see being in my future. I just don't know how stable I can be or want to ruin her life because I lose it. :( I used to look to the future but I don't anymore. If this could go away or get reduced and more manageable I think I'd be able to look ahead again.

Trust me, it would have been 1000 times more exhausting if it were to be super loud 100% of the time.

When did you feel it for the first time?

@asey20 Thanks. I am sadly 3 years into this and its only gotten worse :/ But I remain hopeful. Otherwise its impossible to push forward

@Bill Bauer like a week ago? Why?

> However it's just been pretty loud the last 24 hours and I'm having a tough time telling if it's getting better or not.

You need to wait for several months to be able to tell whether it is getting better. Ears heal very slowly.

I believe that HeavyMantra's experience isn't common. It is also possible that eventually the fraction of the good days will keep increasing, but of course nothing is guaranteed.

@Bill Bauer It is true that I seem a bit better after waking up right now. I'll try and be patient and find a way to deal with my anxiety I guess.

The daily trend has too much noise and is meaningless. Focus on the monthly trend.

@Bill Bauer that's good news then!

Thats what I'm periodically noticing too. It'll be a while before things improve. It takes forever. Im only 2 months in right now myself.

When it comes to forecasting one's likelihood of recovery, what matters is the monthly trend and the global lows. What happens on any given day (e.g., a spike) isn't important.

@Bill Bauer i hope so. I'm having trouble coping sometimes. It seems to fluctuate a lot, however I can't tell if that's just because I'm not focusing on it or it actually is changing.

Yes and yes.

I'm glad you guys are optimistic. Let's hope good things happen for all of us via treatment or time!

The next 2-3 years or so you will likely be vulnerable. You might not be getting temporary spikes, but that doesn't mean you won't get a permanent spike.

Habituation happens when one is about 2-3 years in. So your T is probably getting quieter.

A common outcome is getting to the "can hear it only in quiet rooms" stage. Of course some people report hearing complete silence.

That's good news then. Let's keep the progress going. Sleep has been helping and I'm starting to sleep better. Even if this goes away I will I'll stay on this forum to support the cause.

Nights are still bad but at least I get some bliss in the mornings now.

This is a good sign. You're going to experience ups and downs but from everything people say on here, the early fluctuations are a good thing.

I hope so

Isn't it strange how it can become barely noticeable in the morning but gets worse. Especially the more that I think about it. Must be a sign that I can eventually get this under control to a point where I'll barely notice it.

I also noticed that my left ear gets louder when I plug it in but my right ear doesn't really get louder anymore. Idk what any of this means or if its good signs. I guess its good that there isn't tones really present and its mostly static sounds and sensations.

Anyways, thanks guys for the support. It's been helpful and I don't think I could make it without the support. Sometimes I cannot really hear it and I feel normal again. I guess this is good and hopefully this continues to be the case.

Yes, Tinnitus generally does fluctuate A LOT at the start. That's totally normal and expected. As time goes on, it will generally settle down and lessen, if not disappear. Try to only read the success stories on this site if the support forum is making you anxious, and give it time.

Even sunblock combined with bug repellent (which you would think is a lot more mainstream) doesn't exist...

@Bill Bauer I'll invent that first and raise enough money to invent my pill

As long as you don't hurt your ears a second time (especially over the next three years), you ought to be fine.

@Bill Bauer I don't even know what I did to hurt my ears the first time. T__T

Hey man, I'm four months in and know how you're feeling. Some days are hell, others are a bit more tolerable. I've had some mornings where I've woken up to silence as well, and assume this is a good sign, so hang in there. It seems that most people do get better, it just takes a lot of time which isn't an easy fact to accept this early in the game. If you need to talk feel free to send me a message.

Had the mildest T since I took lorazepam at 8pm last night to 6 pm tonight. I even fell asleep after the lorazepam had worn off. Hopefully these are good signs. T gets loud every night but quiets in morning.

EEEEeeeeEEEEeeeeEEEEeeee wtf sigh

>I barely slept last night

This is a normal reaction during the first few months. Make sure to try masking. Playing nature sounds gives you something else to listen to besides your T.

You will want to make sure that you don't hurt your ears during this period of vulnerability as your body is healing. You will want to avoid taking ototoxic drugs, avoid microsuction or syringing (performed when you need to clean wax out of your ears; a manual tool should be used), and not let your dental hygienist use an ultrasonic scaling tool on you (a manual tool should be used). For more details, see

https://www.tinnitustalk.com/threads/tinnitus-week-2018-what-advice-would-you-give-to-someone-else-who-has-tinnitus.26850/#post-307822