Search results for query: *

I still haven't dared to sleep without my masking.

I’m very sorry that you also have to deal with your “new” reality. I’m still fairly new to this myself—nearly 5 months in. The idea of tinnitus “fading” seems to be a myth. I have the same experience as you, though I don’t use medication. I rely on a sound device to help me sleep. My tinnitus is...

Update: Something new. my lowpitch tone on my bad left ear is now louder than the high pitch one. I don't know why. It's now something like 980 hz. I wonder how i can habituate to this, if its fluctuating all the time. This is new. Does this mean, that im improving?

Yep, that sounds like my tinnitus. Mine is also reactive, and the reactive sound is a nightmare. 😔 Well, I’m starting to believe our lives are screwed. F***.

I’m very sorry to hear that. The thought you mentioned has been on my mind a lot over the past few months. It feels unfair. What is your tinnitus like? Do you believe it can disappear, as people often say here in the forum?

I left my band today. I had to give up another thing that I loved. Everyone was outraged and no one could understand it. After all, nobody had T. Only me. T takes everything from you. Until there's nothing left of you. Just like listening to music, or sitting in silence. Or sleep.

I made a decision today with a heavy heart. I'm not going to live like this. F*** you "god", or "universe" or whatever it is that has thrown us here into this torturous existence. I'm going to try to last a year, maybe I'll make it to 1.5. If it's not better then, I'm going to kil this useless...

I wanted to add my hearing test results, first from November 4, 2024, and the second from February 6, 2025. Though hearing tests are not particularly meaningful, especially within the standard range, I still wanted to compare them. My right ear improved slightly, but my left ear is what is...

Exactly 4 months ago I woke up wishing it was a nightmare. The last month has really sucked. I definitely very often have the feeling that absolutely nothing has improved. It's this malignant certainty that it will stay like this for the rest of my life. When I use earplugs, it still throws me...

Man, I really envy you. I don’t want to sound ignorant, but I think you’ve been very lucky that your tinnitus has already settled.

Hi @JJJ147, how is your T?

Dear Silence, will we ever meet again?

I feel exactly the same.

I tried some calm ambient music at low volume yesterday, which I used to love after a long workday. It’s completely distorted due to my reactive tinnitus—an atonal, shrieking whistle that exists only to destroy every harmony in beautiful music. I cannot escape it. I really wanted to die this...

I can’t believe these stories. How can you accept that this is how the rest of your life should be? Right now, posts like this just make me angry—nothing personal.

Feeling like a cripple. Very angry today. Soundmachine turned itself off tonight, so i woke up from my T. Work is hell today. It's so unfair, the other folks do not have T from this event! Why is my body this fragile?!? Getting more and more intrusive thoughts, that my life is screwed forever.

This one, sir! I feel you.

Hi Mark, how are you doing in the meantime?

It's really intrusive today... Like on the first day. It will not get better. I know it. I hate this life.

Thank you for elaborating. So, you have a long history of loud noise exposure, so to speak... I never had that—just one incident. Well, you mentioned that band practice spiked your tinnitus, even with good hearing protection. I noticed something similar this week. On Tuesday, before band...

Hello @Cloudious, your story really touched me emotionally because I can completely relate to it. I hope you believe me when I say that a tear rolled down my cheek as I read it. I also truly understand how you feel. I know you’re scared because I am too. I understand your feelings of guilt and...

I've often asked myself recently what little things I was annoyed and worried about back then. I had no idea.

Hi @painted_mirrors, thank you for your response! I find it interesting that your tinnitus behaves in a similar way to some extent. I'd love to know a few things: How did you develop your tinnitus? How careful have you been with your ears throughout your musical career? Was it a sudden onset...

Today is another one of those days when I cannot stand my tinnitus. Every time I think it has gotten better, it comes back. Maybe it is just my imagination, but I am so tired of the thought that one mistake might make me pay for the rest of my life. Today, my tinnitus is particularly reactive...

Unfortunately, I have something similar. I haven't been "at it" that long, but I hate it - in fact, I hate my whole life right now.

I have noticed the following changes since the beginning: -there are loud and quiet days for me -the sound in my "bad" left ear sometimes changes -after getting up, T is usually quieter and gets louder again by bedtime -there have been occasional days when the worst parts of my T were barely...

Hello everyone, as of today I would like to document my progress regarding my noise-induced tinnitus. I've had my tinnitus since October 25, 2024, so I'm currently at the beginning of the fourth month. I will try to post an update every month, or whenever there are significant changes. I would...

First of all, thank you very much for your answer. I really feel as if I have crossed over into a parallel world—a world of tinnitus sufferers that hardly anyone knows about. Yes, TPP. Protection will no longer be a problem. Oh, I would sooner chop off my hand than remove my hearing protection...

Hello everyone, After the success stories on this forum kept me from becoming completely suicidal for a few months, I have finally managed to create an account so that I can introduce myself. English is not my native language, so I am using a translation program. Some things may sound strange...