20 Years

Discussion in 'Introduce Yourself' started by terrychelton, Oct 12, 2017.

    1. terrychelton

      terrychelton Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      1997
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Nervous breakdown
      Hi all
      My first time on any forum such as this .
      Around 20 years ago I had a pretty nasty breakdown ,
      My body shook and my head was exploding and on fire .
      For weeks I was in darkness , I was in a relentless foggy dark night .
      It took me a year to get back on my feet but to be honest I've never fully recovered .
      The reason is the relentless noise in my head .
      It's crickets mainly , sometimes a jet engine .
      My life is good ,kids ,work etc ...so why does this noise stay to haunt ?
      I live with it , my cross to bear if you like .
      These are a few of my thoughts whilst laying in bed listening to those bloody crickets .
       
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    2. Bill Bauer
      No Mood

      Bill Bauer Member Hall of Fame

      Tinnitus Since:
      February, 2017
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Acoustic Trauma
      Why did you have that breakdown, if you don't mind me asking?
       
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      terrychelton

      terrychelton Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      1997
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Nervous breakdown
      I don't mind
      My wife cheated and left with My 2 year old son .
      I moved 300 mile to try to rebuild my life .
      Was then it happened .
      A wonderful person was with me at the time ,
      She still is and my son lives with us .
      My thoughts are because it was a breakdown from hell
      If somehow the cricket sound etc was scarred in my brain forever
       
    4. Bill Bauer
      No Mood

      Bill Bauer Member Hall of Fame

      Tinnitus Since:
      February, 2017
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Acoustic Trauma
      Thank you for sharing.

      I am sorry that you got tinnitus as an indirect result of your ex's actions, but at least many other things in your life seem to have worked out...
       
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      terrychelton

      terrychelton Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      1997
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Nervous breakdown
      Bill ,
      I suppose it's a reminder of what might have been.
      Thank you for your kind words .
       
    6. Bill Bauer
      No Mood

      Bill Bauer Member Hall of Fame

      Tinnitus Since:
      February, 2017
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Acoustic Trauma
      It sounds like the person who replaced your ex was a nicer human being.
       
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    7. Martin69
      Artistic

      Martin69 Member Benefactor

      Location:
      Germany
      Tinnitus Since:
      10/2013
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      (Health) Anxiety
      @terrychelton
      Same here. Breakdown because of health anxiety. This started T in my head.
      High-pitched electric sounds. Only listening to crickets gives me some relief. Or benzos.
      Still suffering after 4 years, even though I live a more or less normal life.
      Take care.
       
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      terrychelton

      terrychelton Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      1997
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Nervous breakdown
      Martin ,
      The high pitch electric sounds last but a moment and in a strange way I like them .
      Jet engines the worse and at this very moment the gentle crickets happily play .
      They can get very playful though and jump on the jet .
      My life , I'm afraid has this mistress and its up to her alone how noisy my head will be .
      We all deal with it in our own ways
      Three glasses of wine and she disappears
      Returning with revengeful glee in the morning .
      Not a regular habit , but useful when the bitch is screaming .
       
    9. sanj100

      sanj100 Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      2 months
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Unknown
      Hey, Terry.

      Really sad to hear what you have had to go through.

      Out of interest, have you done many/any things to reduce the volume/come to terms with tinnitus over the years?

      TRT/CBT/Meditation/Yoga/Medications?

      I only ask because it's horrible to hear that after 20 years these sounds still distress you and you haven't made peace with them.

      I really hope you find peace soon.
       
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      terrychelton

      terrychelton Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      1997
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Nervous breakdown
      No
      I have done nothing about it
      The first time I've mentioned it to anyone was to this forum today
      My wife knows of it , but I never complain to her .
      But it does become normal
      So it's dealt with .
      As I said on my previous post , it's my nasty head mistress .
      And I'm very happy to have told you about it .
      Believe me it isn't nice ,
      But we have a life to live
      So we must live it as if it wasn't there .
      And when she is gentle ..as she is now , everything is better .
       

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