And I see no light no more. 24 years fighting this horror and when I thought I could get out of the fight with a draw the monster sucker punched me while wearing earplugs in a music pub. Turns out that earplugs protect me no more if the noise is loud enough... Poor quality earplugs, music way too loud, whatever it was instead having tinnitus in one ear at a level I could handle with maskers now I have several tones (four? I don't know) in both ears at a volume tenfold of what it was before. Now I cannot mask it without having the sound so loud that the masker becomes uncomfortable itself. So being paranoid all these years about protecting my hearing was not enough. Limiting my social life to ridiculous levels of isolation was not enough. One single night trying to break that isolation brought me to my knees again... I just can't fight no more. I have no strength left. Reading through the forum I see most of you seem to be in the situation I was a few years after the horror began. You seem to pretty much be coping with it waiting for a cure to come but still hanging in there if it does not. I just wonder if there is someone among you that has experienced a constant deterioration of the symptoms throughout the years with every single noisy situation that "normal" people seem to stand just fine. I've only met one person whose symptoms were way worse than mine are now, and ye,t he copes with them with grace and peace of mind. He is a monk, I mean literally a monk. At the time seeing his determination helped me a lot but... well... I am not a monk, am I? Still, has anyone among you found ways to handle the beast when it becomes this violent? How do you even manage to have a social life without enraging the monster even more? Nothing seems to matter now anyway... I am exhausted.