My tinnitus is severe and very intrusive (noise trauma, an indoor concert) and has multiple tones. A typical week goes (or went) like this: two good days, when t is moderate, two very loud days (my head feels like it will explode) and the rest are somewhere between.
I have been able to work and live a semi normal life, but I just don't know how long. My t is slowly getting worse. I can have 6-9 bad days in a row and couple of ok days. This is so consuming. Ok, my last week was like this:
I was slowly recovering for my latest long spike, which lasted for nine days. I have been using mirtazapine for sleeping on/off for nearly two years (3-4 mg, couple of days a row) and thought that I'll take it for two nights. Can't do any harm. Well, after two ok days, the third was very loud. It started like a good day, but during the day my t spiked like never before. I don't know why, was it mirtazapine or just coincidence? I don't know. The next two days were very loud. My right ear played a morse like sound (quite funny actually, but I didn't laugh). It has done it before, so I didn't worry. That is a sound, not a muscle spasm or something like that.
So I went shopping. Didn't plug my ears when in town because I have tried to avoid using ear plugs all the time. When I was returning my car I noticed there was a construction site and decided to take another route. When I was near my car, somebody pushed a car horn just next to me, for no apparent reason. It was a big van, just two meters away. Oh boy I was loud! I was next to a wall, so the sound bounced back into my worse ear.
So came the pain. Ear pain. My ears react like that nowadays when I hear a loud noise or a moderately loud. The pain passed quickly, like it has done before. I didn't take prednisolone or anything, because I thought that the sound couldn't make any permanent damage. Well, I can be wrong.
And then yesterday, I was in a kids party. Oh boy I hate air balloons. I don't know what's wrong with me, but balloons seem to pop around me! I went outside, took my ear plugs away because I was about to leave and thought I am safe. I forgot something and went inside for a second and "boom". A balloon popped about four to five meters away. A big one. What next...?
Now there's been eight very loud days in a row. My new record would be ten. It's possible that I will make it now. What can we learn from my experiences? The world is full of sudden loud noises and medicines that can make t spike. I don't want to wear ear plugs all the time when I go outside, but I feel that I have to think about it. Somebody has said that just live your life and don't worry so much. It's easy to say, but when T is severe something must be done. I just don't know. I hope my t will calm down. If it doesn't, I'm am screwed. Badly. Those moderately loud days have meant so much for me. They have meant hope. Hope for a recovery. Time will tell.
I have been able to work and live a semi normal life, but I just don't know how long. My t is slowly getting worse. I can have 6-9 bad days in a row and couple of ok days. This is so consuming. Ok, my last week was like this:
I was slowly recovering for my latest long spike, which lasted for nine days. I have been using mirtazapine for sleeping on/off for nearly two years (3-4 mg, couple of days a row) and thought that I'll take it for two nights. Can't do any harm. Well, after two ok days, the third was very loud. It started like a good day, but during the day my t spiked like never before. I don't know why, was it mirtazapine or just coincidence? I don't know. The next two days were very loud. My right ear played a morse like sound (quite funny actually, but I didn't laugh). It has done it before, so I didn't worry. That is a sound, not a muscle spasm or something like that.
So I went shopping. Didn't plug my ears when in town because I have tried to avoid using ear plugs all the time. When I was returning my car I noticed there was a construction site and decided to take another route. When I was near my car, somebody pushed a car horn just next to me, for no apparent reason. It was a big van, just two meters away. Oh boy I was loud! I was next to a wall, so the sound bounced back into my worse ear.
So came the pain. Ear pain. My ears react like that nowadays when I hear a loud noise or a moderately loud. The pain passed quickly, like it has done before. I didn't take prednisolone or anything, because I thought that the sound couldn't make any permanent damage. Well, I can be wrong.
And then yesterday, I was in a kids party. Oh boy I hate air balloons. I don't know what's wrong with me, but balloons seem to pop around me! I went outside, took my ear plugs away because I was about to leave and thought I am safe. I forgot something and went inside for a second and "boom". A balloon popped about four to five meters away. A big one. What next...?
Now there's been eight very loud days in a row. My new record would be ten. It's possible that I will make it now. What can we learn from my experiences? The world is full of sudden loud noises and medicines that can make t spike. I don't want to wear ear plugs all the time when I go outside, but I feel that I have to think about it. Somebody has said that just live your life and don't worry so much. It's easy to say, but when T is severe something must be done. I just don't know. I hope my t will calm down. If it doesn't, I'm am screwed. Badly. Those moderately loud days have meant so much for me. They have meant hope. Hope for a recovery. Time will tell.
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