Hello. I typed "I want to kill myself because of tinnitus" into Google and this forum came up. My tinnitus started on Nov. 1. I'm so panicked. I have been to an ENT and he said I have age related tinnitus and to him it was no big deal. I had a hearing test. I've lost high frequencies in both ears but my hearing is okay otherwise. He told me that I am the problem--that something I'm doing combined with the age related hearing loss is what is causing this tinnitus. He said to give up alcohol, caffeine, artificial sweetners and salt. Nothing seems to make a difference. On Thanksgiving I had a reprieve--it was almost like I didn't have it but it came back with a vengeance. I drank wine and it killed it but the next day it was back so loud. I called my GP in a panic and he called in some Ambien for me as I couldn't sleep and had only slept 3 or 4 hours a night for over a month. I feel like I made it worse by having wine but I couldn't cope anymore. I've tried using masking sounds. I'm asking my daughter to go get me an ipod or mp3 player--I tried at lunch today but I am older and can't figure out what to buy. I am in a bad place. I go from panicked to crazy. I cannot picture the rest of my life like this. I have an appointment with my GP tomorrow. I'm going to read more when I calm down. Thanks for listening.