Hey Now!

So I thought I would join this forum board because after browsing anonymously I see it is more supportive than negative. I can't deal with negative stuff as I give myself enough of that on my own so I hope this is a pleasant experience. I'm 38 (pretty much 39, so basically 40). I have a steady tonal/ringing tinnitus in my left ear and more of a tuning fork weird ring in my right. I also get rushes of blood in my left ear when I get up out of bed etc. I am okay with those things as I've been dealing with them for about 7 months. I've actually had tinnitus forever but never knew it was a "condition" which sent me on a tailspin of depression/anxiety etc. (I'm sure you are all familiar). But that's over now.

But, the new thing (started last week maybe 7/3 or so) is a weird low rumble/humming in my left ear that stops briefly and then kicks in again if I talk, sniff, or shake my head. It came on when I developed a cold and although the cold is pretty much gone now the sound is still there. I admit it's much better than it was last week (a louder vwoom vwoom sound that went in and out) but it's still there and noticeable. I wonder if I always had this and the cold just forced me to pay attention? I went to the ENT (why do we pay them again?) and he said my ears looked great and offered to do a hearing test. I told him I already had one of those 6 months ago and it found no measurable hearing loss so he said it wasn't necessary. He said the noise may be due to the cold and it would go away. I asked what to do if it doesn't and he said to let him know and then they would do a hearing test. I asked what he would do if my hearing was fine and he said nothing. What kind of profession is that? make some progress already! Idiots.

Anyway, here I sit. The rumble (or light-sabre sound as I've seen it referred to) is what I'm trying to get used to now as I have conquered the other sounds. My hope is that it continues to improve but my gut (always a cynic) says it's improved as much as it is going to and I need to learn to just accept it as a new weird background noise I have, maybe think of it as a life-hum, you know, just the sound of my body being alive and working. I find myself wishing I could go back two weeks and see if it was there at all so I could know if I am just now noticing something I've always had. But we all now we can't go backwards, always onward in this life. I would think I would have noticed it during my over-analysis of my ears during the prior 7 months but who knows? If it gets lower and lower then maybe I would not have. At work today I didn't hear it at all because we were outside for an Office picnic but normally I am alone in a quiet office so it can be very unnerving.

I hope you all can offer positive support. Thanks for reading.