How to live everyday life!?

Hi,

I just got T for about two months ago... Or maybe a litte bit less. It is really not that bad. The sound itself is quiet low and as long as I am around people or a fan (and not stressed) it really is ok. I can not notice it then. When I sleep I use a masker and I listens to a documentary and it is no problem to fall asleep. I am really trying to stay positiv and not freak out. I am trying to go on with my life as normal as possible. But the thing that holds me back is fear. I am so freaking afraid that the sound will get worse. I am even afraid to go to a bar with earplugs. I am scared to go to a store with loud music. I am afraid to be out for to long since I do not want to get tired and make it worse. How do you guys live your life? Can you still do all the things you did before? Can you go to the movies and do stuff like that? Be around larger groups of people? Now days I hate that people talk so laud ans scream? This really is the worst part for me!!! And I feel so alone in this right now. I have to study since I am at an exchange semester abroad and have no choice. So trying to stay positive is the only way, even though I would rather just end it somedays when the fear is to big (would not do that though, but I guess you know the feeling!).

My T is the result of a night out with to load sounds. Do you know if it is possible for it to go away? I was also very stressed at the time, so that might have contributed. I can not get an answer of the doctor if my ears are more sensitive now than before or if they are the same. Before I could go to the movies or be at a cafe or dinner with my friends without damaging my ears, can I still do that? Or do I need to be at quieter places now. How does it work? Anyone who knows? I just want to be able to live just as normal.

I am also wondering if you tried vinpocetine and if you found it any good? And if I should try and that in fact would make the T worse would it decrease if I stopped? Do you have any experience about that.

And last I wanted to ask if someone else had experienced a lid in the ear (like a more soft sound in the era, like the one you can get on an airplane)? I get that from time to time in my ears since the T showed up? Is that related, anyone knows?

/Sanna

 

Sanna,

When I first got my tinnitus, I had the very same feelings as you. I wore ear plugs anywhere there was sound I deemed too loud. I got to the point where I didn't wear them in a movie, as most movies weren't too loud. I did notice that IMAX movies were crazy loud and I always wore them in there though. In that aspect, it didn't seem to bother me. I did go to a lot of bars that had music playing and a lot of ambient noise, although that didn't bother it much either. You have to be your own gauge over what you think might be too loud. Pack a pair of ear plugs with you if you go out, and if you have to yell to talk to people in a bar, it's probably a little too loud and you should pop your ear plugs in. I found that most movies though you can talk or whisper next to your neighbor and they can hear you/you can hear them so I wasn't too concerned about movies. Most restaurants didn't bother me either, unless there was a live band playing or something. It definitely seems like the times my tinnitus has gotten aggravated has been in loud situations in bars or at concerts when I did not wear ear plugs, and it was too loud. If you follow that advice, you'll most likely keep your tinnitus at that fairly low level and not have any problems! Just keep in mind that you have "sensitive ears" as I like to put it, as most of us tinnitus sufferers do. Why some people seem like they can go to loud bar after loud bar (or work nightly in those places! ahh!) or concert after concert and not have hearing problems is beyond me. Or my old friends who went shooting very frequently and never wore ear plugs... is it them who have tinnitus? At least they've never complained about it or mentioned it to me.

But right now you're still in the initial freak out phase about tinnitus, so many sounds may seem too loud to you at this time. Habituation will change that somewhat, but complacency will get you to where I am... having had that low level sound and now have it slightly worse because of going to a bar that was too loud without hearing protection.

 

Sanna,
How lucky you are to fall alseep. Whatever happened to me.
I CAN"T SLEEP. its my own hell now.
I'll talk to my doctor tomorrow again.

 

James, Hi. I use drugs (prescription) as it is the only way and I struggled with living on two-three hrs sleep for over a month and it really beat me up. I don't like to admit this but I am happy for the sleep I get with Clonaz as it is my only real break from the godawful T. I take a half tab with a tb spoon of Nyquil each night. My days too are as you say "hell"
Frank

 

Plucky, Frank, I read some of your posts. I don't know if I can cope, and your story is over the top. One hour at a time, one night at a time, one day at a time. I just popped my meds, maybe I'll loose my hair, my god. I just laid down, not sleeping, so I get up. Some strong people in here with much support, like Karen, calin, erik, etc! If only the pulsing would stop. I'll see the doctor on Monday, I need a plan to live with.

Not sure if this will change my life, my wife, or my job?
Those are other stories. Just wanted to say Hi Frank.
Kind of straying from the thread- How to live everyday life?

 

My studies are ok. I think I can manage them, sometimes I am a bit sad and it feels harder to focus. But besides that I really hope I will make it. While I get caught up in an assignment it is ok, but the problem is that the mins so ofter start to think about the T instead. Ofter I can not here the sound if in the library and other sound around.

But still my biggest fear is to make it worse in any way. And the though that I need to worry about this my whole life feels awful. I feel so sad even thinking about it. But I guess as you said time will make it better and will make me get not as nervous... so thanks.

 

Set those concerns aside and just try to sort through all of the information and advise you receive here. This is the best support group I could find. I am sorry I did not see your post sooner and respond. I hope that you are feeling better. I have not been visiting the site , trying to avoid anything having to do with T in an effort to wish it away. I am not succeeding, James, but I am surviving day by day and look forward to doctor appointments. You should do that too and realize that you will get meaningful help here and that the possibility is real that you will get better and that it could go away completely. Let me know how you are doing

 

Thanks Frank. I agree, some support found here, Thanks to everyone involved.
A statement I don't get is "that it will get better", perhaps I'm impatience. I find little to lessen my T at this point. Sleep is still a problem, I wish I could sleep on my own without the drugs. Yes, I look forward to my own doctor apts. I wish we all get better, and that modern medicine can help us too. All for now. Back to daily life. Peace.