Hyperacusis-related Tinnitus Spikes

My t has hit an all time high! It's awful, feels like my head is buzzing. Noise aggravates my t so it's not like I can mask it. I just took a walk and it's on full blast again. What did it? The birds chirping? This is hell. It's torture and no one should have to live with this this. Why isn't anything known? How could I even do TRT now if I react this badly to sounds??!! Someone, anyone, please HELP. @here2help will this spike go down? What is this? How do continue on? I am so afraid and unsure how to cope. I know you will say see trt specialist, I am waiting for my oae test. YES STILL! bloody Canadian health care..The test is on 21st and I see ent again on 28th and he said he would sign trt forms them. Please any positive advice..i dont want to resort to a triple dose of clonazepam. I feel like hiding I my room but if I do I'm afraid it will be game over for me or psych ward. I cannot take anymore isolation. I cannot handle pure silence. I just cannot believe there are no proper answers from doctors for this. I feel like a freak. Why have my ears gone mad?! I realize I sound a little out of my mind today but frankly I have just reached rock bottom. This last setback did me in emotionally. I think I might need antidepressants or something. I am just worried they will make me worse.

 

Lynn getting an antidepressant may not be the worst thing in the world. If I have bad moments I used xanax and it helped. You have no idea what caused the spike and h increase I gather. I remember hearing the frequency of my heater would cause fullness burning pain. If I recall you have had t spikes and instances of h before and you got through it. I'm sure here2help and others can offer better info but from what I have read h seems to get better with time and you can get there. Your just having another temp setback.

 

Thanks @cullenbohannon My H has gotten much worse in this last setback and now my tinnitus too. I am just at wits end. I am tired and was so hoping to of consistently improved and while it looked like I was doing just that a month ago I took a turn and completely went downhill instead. This tinnitus is so loud, pure high tone ringing, and buzzing..i guess it just has me scared because it's reactive to the lightest sound. I hope the h fades and the t lessens. I guess I will take some clonaz yet again, though I just took a dose and a half last night with no effect first time for that to happen.Maybe I am becoming tolerant. Thanks for your words of encouragement.

 

Hang in there, Lynn. Stay strong.

I just wanted to mention my ears seem to be getting a little sensitive. And loud, sharp sounds are a little jarring. I'm hoping it's just in my head, because I'm all jazzed up to avoid loud sounds. I don't know. My T isn't any louder. But my hearing is getting sensitive, it sure seems like. We'll see.

 

Lynn the t will settle as the age h settles. I doubt you will have a permanent spike especially considering you did nothing that would result in such a result.

 

Thanks @cullenbohannon I did have a noise incident with my phone which I believe triggered ear pain, worsening tts and then this spike. Of course my anxiety went through the roof when this happened and left me very shaken. Anyways then depression really set in so tonight I am sitting here thinking it's been almost 6 mth and my ears have not gotten consistently better but worse or the same and maybe it's time I try an anti depressant while i wait for trt..having h is so hard and then when the t spikes to a piercing level you just want to die..but I can't. .i have kids. I just want my life back, I want to be a good mom and right now all I feel like is a failure..so sick of complaining about my ears and they feel sick about it too..it's really tough having a sick mom and everyday it's a struggle trying to pretend it's OK. they are great kids and I miss my life. I still try and do things with them and I suffer but it's not fair to them to be totally unavailable. My H is severe.

 

It's ok to hurt Lynn. The TRT will be very beneficial to you I think and try the ad they may be helpful. You owe it to yourself to do and try anything to get better and you will
, I'm sure your kids are great and understand what's going on. you and they have plenty of great memories you have yet
to make. It's ok to feel bad today tomorrow is a new day and so is the day after and the
day after that.

 

Thank you @cullenbohannon for taking the time to try and help me today. I really appreciate it. I am hopeful.

 

Hopefully not h, you just being hyperaware. Anxiety can also cause you to startle. In the beginning of my H, I developed a major phobia towards sounds that I worked on and it went away. However now I feel that I have a healthier fear towards loud noises considering the state of my ears. Anyways hopefully me being more cautious will result in improvement. Thank you, you stay strong too!