I Think I Just Hurt My Ear with a Phone

[fishbone]

A phone rang. Normally I use my healthy ear when talking on the phone. This time, I used by bad ear. The voice I heard was loud, and this was made worse by the fact that there was no space between the phone and my ear.

Now I have that full ear sensation(!) Back in January when I had my acoustic trauma, I also initially had just the full ear sensation. Eleven days later, I started to experience T.

I wonder how much damage I just did to myself... I guess simply anything can, under the wrong circumstances, hurt your compromised ear now.

Hang in there bud, hope your ears are better and get better

 

[PaulBe]

Let's just say that if I were an American (with access to a gun), there would be no more messages from me, by now.

So, where are you? Have you managed to get any support at all outside of this forum?

 

[Bill Bauer]

So, where are you? Have you managed to get any support at all outside of this forum?

I don't want to take drugs that a psychiatrist might prescribe to me. I am an introvert, so I know myself very well. I don't think I can benefit from an interview with a psychologist - I don't repress feelings (as you can see by reading this thread ), I know that I am supposed to take my mind off of T and not think of it as threatening. If I am not doing something that ought to be done, it is because I am incapable of doing it. A stranger (psychologist) talking to me won't change that. If anything, I can see becoming more suicidal after having such a talk. I know myself - I will basically perceive such a talk as Rape. To me, whenever I have to do something against my will, or bear something against my will - I perceive it as being mentally raped. (T = possibly life-long rape.) More rape won't make me less suicidal.

I am in better spirits compared to how I was in the morning. If I will have trouble sleeping tonight, I will be back to that mindset of hopelessness.

 

[PaulBe]

A stranger (psychologist) talking to me won't change that.

I had an introductory with a psychologist at one time. That's where it ended. Total crap it was. Spilling your guts to someone who hasn't a clue, and hands you a bill at the end isn't my idea of helpful either. The only talking that ever helped me was with a specialist audiologist who researches this for a living.

 

[light rain]

That's why you need to find someone you can work with. Im sure plenty of people have had less than stellar experiences with psychologists. I've walked away before because either the person wasn't knowledgeable or you just don't click with them.

I'm not pro psychology or psychiatry but when someone is in a very dark place it can help to get another perspective. So a good therapist can challenge you too and not in a bad way. I had grief counselling for 2 years with a woman you hadn't lost anyone. I thought it was not going to work but it did. Before that I was very down on therapy because it had always been reactive instead of proactive. A place offering assistance insisted on it for all young widows/widowers regardless of how anyone felt. So it was really life skills not just talk therapy about feelings.

Not everyone struggling with T needs help but when it gets to a crisis that's another thing.