I'm Me Again!

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by m4gnus, Nov 25, 2018.

    1. m4gnus
      Joyful

      m4gnus Member

      Location:
      Sweden
      Tinnitus Since:
      04/2018
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      unknown
      A short introduction, my name is Magnus, I am a Swedish 16 year old and I have absolutely no idea of how I got tinnitus. (English is not my mother tongue, so you have to excuse my language and grammar.)

      So about 8 months ago I sat in my room and noticed that the noise of my computer was still there, although my computer was turned off. I did not care much about it, but the next morning when I woke up and noticed that the sound was still there, I got almost paralyzed of fear and in a blink of an eye I thought my life was over. It started as a wind sound in both of my ears, and then a very high pitched note in my left ear appeared.

      The first months was living hell for me and I thought to myself that I did not want to live anymore. In just a few months I was completely changed as a person (in a bad way). I did not want to go to school, I did not want to talk to my family and friends, I just wanted to sit alone in my room and cry. The more I listened to the sound the more I could hear it, and the more I could hear it the more sad and depressed I became. It felt like a never ending circle of anxiety and depression.

      My biggest passion is music and my dream is to become a musician, so when I got tinnitus I thought that my life was over. (I have always used ear protection and have never been on a concert, so I am pretty sure my tinnitus is not caused by that.) I though to myself, how would i ever enjoy music again with this sound in my ears? So I stopped with music, I put my double bass down and I did not touch it for a few months.

      I went to a doctor who checked my hearing, and to my surprise was my hearing way better than the average 16 year old. It made me happy but it made me think. What was the cause of my tinnitus?

      About 5 months in, I sat on the subway on my way home from school and the train driver said it would take 1 hour extra to get home so i though it was a good time to listen to music. (It was the first time I listened to music since I got tinnitus, I had read the warnings online about not using headphones, so I was very careful and had the volume on very low). I put the headphones on and started to listen, after a while I realized that I did not hear the tinnitus, so I paused the music and to my disappointment, it was still there. But, I was super happy because it was the first time I have forgotten the tinnitus since I got it. That was also the occasion when I figured I had to do something about my depression and to my tinnitus.

      Now I am sitting in front of my computer with tinnitus screaming in both of my ears, but the big difference now is that I try not to care about my tinnitus. I would even say I am a happier person now than before I got tinnitus. Tinnitus really made me realize what is important in life. I go to a music high school here in Stockholm where I play electric and double bass everyday, I have a good relationship with my friends and family and tinnitus is not even my nr. 1 problem anymore.

      There are a few songs that I would like to share that really helped me (some of them are in Swedish)

      Du måste finnas - Helen Sjöholm...

      Stevie Wonder - Summer Soft (1976)


      Jónsi - Go Do (Full Studio Version)

      Kent - VinterNoll2 (Video)

      Chris Thile, Edgar Meyer, Stuart Duncan, Yo-Yo...

       
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    2. threefirefour
      Rebellious

      threefirefour Member Benefactor Hall of Fame

      Location:
      California
      Tinnitus Since:
      5/15/16
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      140dB B R U H moment
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    3. Contrast

      Contrast Member Benefactor Hall of Fame

      Location:
      Retrovile
      Tinnitus Since:
      2017
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      acoustical trauma
      Actually Jimbo you do have hearing loss, they don't test for hearing loss via speech in background noise and complex noise like music, when they say you have no hearing loss what they mean is that you have no hearing loss within the human voice range.
       
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    4. threefirefour
      Rebellious

      threefirefour Member Benefactor Hall of Fame

      Location:
      California
      Tinnitus Since:
      5/15/16
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      140dB B R U H moment
      Brainblast!

      So If I use my new invention to get rid of hidden hearing loss, then I won't have any hearing distortion!
       
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      m4gnus
      Joyful

      m4gnus Member

      Location:
      Sweden
      Tinnitus Since:
      04/2018
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      unknown
      But they did a sound test with different pitched sounds, is it the same for those kinds of tests?
       
    6. Rick Brewer

      Rick Brewer Member

      Location:
      Florida
      Tinnitus Since:
      02/2017
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Noise Exposure
      Well done M4gnus! I enjoyed the Yo-Yo Ma jam particularly.
       
    7. Tinker Bell

      Tinker Bell Member Hall of Fame

      Location:
      U.S.
      Tinnitus Since:
      02/2017
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      SSHL from virus
      They tested my ability to hear speech and different tones with background noise. Maybe it depends on your audiologist. :dunno:
       
    8. Contrast

      Contrast Member Benefactor Hall of Fame

      Location:
      Retrovile
      Tinnitus Since:
      2017
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      acoustical trauma
      I can objectively say I have hidden hearing loss due to the high pitch notes in my favorite music having less priority.
       
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    9. Tinker Bell

      Tinker Bell Member Hall of Fame

      Location:
      U.S.
      Tinnitus Since:
      02/2017
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      SSHL from virus
      But you can hear the high pitch notes? Do they sound quieter? I have hearing loss and cannot hear the lost frequencies unless they reach nearly 80dB. They aren’t just quieter, they’re gone.

      Have you had an acoustic reflex test? I am curious because they can show loss (or indicate future loss) not picked up by other hearing tests.
       
    10. dpdx
      Disappointed

      dpdx Member Benefactor Hall of Fame

      Location:
      Murica
      Tinnitus Since:
      Onset:09/23/2017 Worsened: 1/17/2018
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Acoustic Trauma, worsened by caloric test/VEMP test 90db nhL
      I agree with you. I have mild hearing loss in noisy places. I also have a hard time understanding words in music which was not the case before.
       
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