Impossible Seeming Possible

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by Tenna, May 22, 2015.

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    1. Tenna
      Anime

      Tenna Member

      Location:
      Europe
      Tinnitus Since:
      10/2013
      It's been a long while since I've visited here, that in itself has not always been a good sign, but I can finally say something is happening.
      To shortly introduce myself to those not familiar, I'm a girl in my start twenties, acquired t from excessive (normal) ipod usage, and dj'ing/going to concerts.
      For years I've been battling serious invisible and untreated mental illness, as well as immense physical pain which all have kept me from living a normal functioning life. On the outside I've maintained a facade of success, and on the inside I was/am deeply crippled.
      When tinnitus struck me, it was a second deadly blow, to one already fatally wounded through many years.
      My freedom was already limited, and it added extra limitation by taking away my dj'ing, the one freespace I had left. I've been suicidal many times prior to tinnitus and actually especially during the weeks right before onset.
      2 months into tinnitus, I ended up on the ER for mental health, and to my luck the psychiatrists suspected the phantom sounds as potentially acute psychosis. My ears was messed up by music I know, nevertheless as they suspected tinnitus as a potential psychological hallucination, it opened up a recognition for my more severe suffering from other symptoms.
      I've been in intense directed treatment for about a year now, and yet as it hasn't been the miracle I hoped for, it has definitely added improvement to my quality of life.
      I look back with great ambivalence, what was greatly traumatic was at the same time a happy accident, that opened up for the treatment I'm receiving, and my diagnosis' offers the opportunity of the authorities paying for my education, the one of my dreams :)
      As much as I feel I've won the worst genetical lottery, I'm playing the cards I've been given and seizing the opportunities it has provided me with, and I haven't thrived to this extent in a long time.

      I've yet to reach complete habituation, but my intend here is to provide some hope and make you realise if I can somewhat successfully do this with my extravagantly bad bagground of sickness, so can you. My main problem was my other symptoms keeping incapable of staying occupied in order to divert my attention from t. Be it anxiety and whatnot. If your symptoms are physical, do something psychological, and are your symptoms psychological, try to do something physical. Many have said it before and I repeat key is to break your occupation with tinnitus, force yourself to do what you like doing, and divert your occupation there.

      On another note I attended to a party some weeks ago with loud music wearing my custom molded earplugs, and it was amazing.
      I'm planning on adding to my success update in future :)
      Hang in there guys!

      cheers
       
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    2. SoulStation
      No Mood

      SoulStation Member Ambassador Team Tech

      Location:
      New York
      Tinnitus Since:
      2012
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Noise / Possible Medication
      Do you have musician plugs with the filters? Or are they just custom molded with no filter?
       
    3. Tenna
      Anime

      Tenna Member

      Location:
      Europe
      Tinnitus Since:
      10/2013
      Musician earplugs with 25 dB filter. :) Works like a charm, I might even go this weekend have to try not to get too brave however.
      One success at the time!
       
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    4. billie48
      Sunshine

      billie48 Member Benefactor Hall of Fame Ambassador Team Research

      Location:
      Vancouver, Canada
      Tinnitus Since:
      03/2009
      Thank you Tenna for coming back to update us with your success story. We need these kind of encouraging stories to show newer sufferers that T is not an end game. It is livable and given time condition will improve. Your story confirms that even with prior condition of health challenges, one can still recover from the T nightmare and move on with life. Congrats to your success and thanks again for sharing this.
       
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