Losing Myself Because of Unbearable Tinnitus

[Scruffiey]

I hope I'm misreading your post, but please don't do anything rash. Applying for MAID and going through the process is one thing, but making any snap decisions is an entirely different matter, with far bigger potential repercussions for both you and your family.

I know the irrationality this condition can bring. Trust me, I was about a week away from that road myself. I'm not saying life is great now—it's not—but my mental state did eventually recover enough that any future decision will be made with a sound mind and careful consideration.

I had, and still have, the ear burning and pain. It's absolutely horrible. But with time and relative quiet—not constant ear protection all the time—it's no longer constant, even if life remains limited. What you're experiencing right now doesn't mean you'll become one of those people wearing ear defenders 24/7.

Go to the doctor and get some Clonazepam to at least give yourself a little break for a few days.