Not Feeling Great Today...?

Hello all out there in TT world, do any of you get days when you wake up and for no reason the T is really loud and affecting you overall that you feel so anxious, for some reason i have this today, I feel really on edge and a bit shaky / trembly / weak overall.

I think my sub conscience plays with me some times and it really goes back to my T starting from a really stressful period I was going through about a year ago and with a minor hearing loss, which I did not know at the time, that is how I think my T started.

Most evenings when I get home and some mornings i get a similar feelings as my stressful period started with me getting annoyed with our neighbours as they talk so loud when in the garden but for the most part never bothered me until they acquired two dogs that happen to live in the shed at the bottom of the garden and although it is not the dogs barking or anything it has just made them come out into the garden more, although probably my annoyance was totally out of proportion to the cause it really got to me and made me slightly depressed and with drawn etc that our peace had been disturbed then to make it worse a few months later i get the noise, i think i could manage at home now if it was not for my T , i really have messed myself up, i have never had to deal with anything like this in my life before.

That's my brief reason i think i still get days like today and i wondered if anyone else out there had T that was brought on by a stressful period and do you still get triggers that affect your body and mind that you suffer like i do if so do you have any methods that you have that might help in anyway ?
I still find it hard to drag my negative thoughts on how it was before dogs and T in another direction and stay positive but i struggle, i try and distract myself and keep saying how daft i am but the old mind wanders back to stupid neighbours but my ridiculous overreaction am sure if i did not have the T i know deep down i would feel a lot better and manage easier.

Hope someone out there understands?
Thank you for your time

 

Hi Freddie,I get that first thing in the morning T,if sky high or very low,I'm a dog lover but on certain T days a dogs continual bark in the distance can make the day worse,on a good day T I'm fine relating to a dogs bark.
The weathers really damp in UK think that's why yours is playing yours up,and causing you grief,and sounds like your stressed out in big way it happens to us all.We all relate to it stress wise.
London's a stressful place alone without the T .keep windows closed shut dog noise out,can do that with summer were having.Put radio on,even a TV ,to cover the outside noise,I do that,then get into a good book or just chat on here,always someone on line,don't have to be about T.Start something off,new thread.
This day will pass,just a bad day for you today,all get them Freddie ,all understand on here what your saying.
My T screaming got up with it,annoying the heck out of me to ,husbands the same today .It will settle back.X

 

I feel for you, @Freddie. Yes, I have bad days. A lot less of them, though, than when I got tinnitus 15 months ago. It is as @Marlene says: Just remember the bad days will pass. And she has some good advice about how to get through them.

Just FYI: My tinnitus always is worst when I first wake up. It is true for many people. So even though I sleep with a Sound Pillow, so I am getting faint masking noise at night, I reach for my head phones as soon as I get up and play some very soft masking sound (classical, nature sound, anything will work as long as it is distracting and not loud enough to cover your T) while I make coffee, get ready for work, etc. By the time I had a nice shower (showers are great maskers!) and about to start my commute, my volume is considerably less. I just started this routine a couple months ago and it helps me most days.

Also, that weak/trembly feeling you have? Probably anxiety. It used to kick in for me in the morning, as I start fretting about everything I needed to do and how I was going to live with my loud T for the next 24 hours.

Starting a new day definitely was an anxiety trigger for me in the beginning, occasionally still is now. Listening to my masking noise first thing helps that. Also, I sit with my coffee and do a little meditating, deep breathing, anything to relax me. I do some positive self statements, reminding myself that everything I truly need to do will get done today, that the tinnitus will calm down when I get busy (as it always have), that I have a nice dinner with friends/a walk outside in the evening/whatever else might be happening later to look forward to. In the beginning, when I was so terribly anxious, I also took a very small dose of alprazolam to get me started. But I haven't done that in months. Don't need it any more.

 

Sorry, my reply was meant to be like this.

Thank you LadyDi and Marlene for your replies, some days I feel better than others but I just do not know why it can perk up from one day being manageable to the next being so loud, or the perception of being loud as the TRT specialist i am seeing says, are any of you doing anything like TRT to help, I know it is no quick fix and I have only been doing this since Mid May but trying to get the brain to ignore and work side by side with it can be hard, any other tips. ?

 

Freddie
I totally understand! That's what I went through last year (edgy, tired, wake up at night, anxiety attacks, trembly).

You said it perfectly and it is NO small matter!! In fact, I think T sufferers routinely overlook this part of their healing.

I don't have any of that (anxiety/fear) anymore -- post habituation; but reflecting back on the time period I did perplexed me for a quite some time because I wasn't myself and the T situation alone didn't seem to explain all that I was experiencing (and doing). Like you, I had fairly extended periods of time wherein I was doing fine (prior to habituation) but I would wake up at night with an anxiety I couldn't control and I would find myself edgy with people and situations.

At the risk of sounding like a drama-queen, I finally resolved it was something along the lines of PTSD; I'm not saying I have (had) full blown PTSD (nor would I imply that you do) but T can be so traumatizing (at onset and for quite some time) that it's not unreasonable a sufferer would present with some PTSD-like symptoms.

Those suffering PTSD essentially have deep-seeded (unprocessed/ill-processed) anxiety and fear that projects itself into their world; it causes them to blame or refer to external components (the situation, other people) as the cause of their hurt (and usually leads to inappropriate behavior in the way of defensiveness, withdrawal or paranoia). Again, I'm not saying we have full-on PTSD but I do see some parallels.

I recall it very difficult to determine if it was the situation/person bothering me or if it was my T ordeal. This is where unaddressed and un-processed (or ill-processed) anxiety/fear can cause irrational behavior (inappropriate responses to external stimuli).

Again, I'm not implying this is what you are experiencing (this is what I went through). Maybe some of this info will help.

When I finally made peace with my T (processed and resolved the anxiety/fear) I no longer woke up at night with anxiety attacks (I now sleep through thunder storms that shake the house -- or that could be me snoring ).

How did I process it? In reference to my T, I accepted my situation and learned to take my life back (those two things are FAR easier said then done). It's the residual trauma and anxiety that is oft times overlooked and can perpetuate (or regurgitate) the issue time and again -- until resolved. How did I process that? Hmmm...words fail me; I'm not a psychologist with the ability to articulate how a person processes (residual anxiety/fear). I learned to 'think on things above', turned my anxiety/fear over to the one that is in control, and remembered my great future/hope (that helped a lot); I also applied the same things used to habituate (accept my situation, look at it objectively) but beyond that I just know that it no longer resides in me to any relevant degree.

Until then...prayers!

Mark

 

Meditation works for me Freddie,it's a learned thing ,but perseverance is the key it lowers the heart rate,which anxiety gets up ,try it ,find a group they're out there,Walking,drops it plus you notice the tinnitus less,as your eyes are taking in surroundings ,get out on a bike if don't care to walk,your brains thinking of something other than this tinnitus..I'd say quietness not helpful at all,you end up concentrating on its noise more.
Start your day as Lady Di does get music on straight away your in the control seat not it. Good start to the day advice I should do that more often ,instead of chatting to my husband,about our garden etc.my husband has T but no anxiety.Stay looking what others come up with that helps them cope,then try them out,one by one ,you may surprise yourself at what might just work out for you.X

 

Thank you Mark Mcdill you have written a good account there of our inner thoughts etc, it is good to hear that you have virtually habituated, I assume that means that you hear it still but it does not trouble you as much, it can be interesting to understand different peoples perception of habituation and how they are doing?what was it that helped you as this is the goal I want to achieve and am doing some TRT so hopefully I will get there one day soon, any tips?

Thanks again, trying to stay positive