Searching for my Tinnitus...

Hey,
So I woke up this morning to silence......great! The only thing is I layed in bed trying to hear my T?! Does anyone else do this? or am I just a weirdo? (I would totally understand if it's the latter, since i've never been one of the normal ones). Even if i'm at work in the changerooms doing my make-up/getting changed, i'll stop and think "wait I can't hear my T, where is it?" then i concentrate to hear it, until I notice it again then it's back to business...... I actually got a bit frantic the other day when I couldn't hear it . I feel like i'm taking crazy pills ! Anyway i'm sure one day i'll stop this strange phenomenon. Also does anyone notice their T is quieter in the morning? Sometimes i'll get like 10 seconds of silence when I wake up then....boom!

 

I haven't noticed in any patterns to my T levels. Not in the mornings, not if I feel relaxed or at night. Sometimes it's lower but mostly it is louder, I have no idea what creates the difference. I guess if mine went totally silent I would automatic try to listen for it, I guess that's just human response. If you suddenly can't feel a shoulder pain you have been struggling with for a long time you would reach for the shoulder and think "wow, is the pain really gone?"

Ps: When I come to think of it I feel/perceive that my T level goes lower if I take a higher dose of sleep medication than recommended. I guess this gives a psychological effect, it generates a high that I don't think is healthy at all, so I try to stick with the recommended dosage the nights I use them.

 

Deffo - I had a whole night where I didn't hear it - well maybe I did but I can't remember - I had an awesome fun day out with family and a fab night out a bit to drink and the night was 'peaceful' BUT on my bad nights where I toss and turn and when I wake up in the morning its there - at its loudest - annoying and its still there at 12.30 - 1am as sure as the sky is blue I wake up ....... to hear it !

It takes a while but somehow we have to STOP listening for it - I now 100% don't do this through the day - I used too - I would walk into a quiet bedroom and 'wait' for it - then yes - there it is - then we have to learn to ignore it again until distracted enough ......

Nights for me are the hardest - I feel envious of those who find it doesn't effect their sleep but then maybe it takes a bit more time.

A noise in your head that you potentially have to live with forever is a tough call and only others with it can ever begin to understand ! I often wish there was some way of 'showing' people this problem - but there isn't a scar or a wound to help them understand ! Its all in our heads and it effects us all the same yet differently !

What you describe is exactly how I felt a few weeks ago and I have now got 'used' to that early morning wait for the noise - boom - there it is ......... I used to get up straight away 5am at times and start the morning jobs around the house - now ...... I get up - make a coffee - put the TV on and chill a bit more - with annoying wining noise - but listen to the news and maybe drift off for another 30 mins..... or maybe just get up and get on with the day !

I hope you soon turn the next corner and start to 'stop' listening for it - you will I promise !

xx

 

hi! i ve also experienced brief moments of silence in the morning, right after waking up, two or three times in the last year. Oh, and did i enjoy those moments!! 10 seconds of silence- i didn t move a bit, i was even afraid to breath! And than, the magic went away
Anyway, the T is indeed quieter in the morning but only for a very short period of time.Thank god we don t hear it in our sleep! Although in the beginning, there were times when the annoying sound woke me up in the middle of the nigh, even though i was taking sleeping pills!

 

I do the same, thought I was abnormal too. Luckily, mine is just a consistent high pitched whistle that doesn't fluctuate in loudness that much. Hope I didn't just jinx it though! So far, I haven't not been able to hear it when I wake up, or maybe I'm just not noticing it.

 

I do that too. But sadly it's always there. Mine seems to be louder today and yesterday. I normally don't hear it in the living room but today I can totally hear it. I think it has something to do with me looking for it.

You're lucky yours is quiet in the morning. Mine is like a fire alarm in the morning and doesn't stop until I get up. God must be punishing me for all the times I slept in. He gave me a built in personal alarm clock.
Oh it sucks at night too. Ever since I got T I hate going into my bedroom.

 

Same here .. hate going to sleep! I find the refrigerator sound wery helpful in masking my T, even considered the idea of moving it in my bedroom!

 

It's really loud today, and it's especially worse in the mornings and evenings when I'm lying down.

 

Haha... I thought of that too. I actually took my iPhone and recorded my refrigerator humming for 20 minutes. I would play it in the bedroom at night. Ahhhh!... refrigerator hum like heroine for my ears.

 

Each time i hear a new sound i start asking everybody around me..can you hear it too?or is it in my head?! i keep covering my ears to locate the source of sound like a maniac, changing my position, and than i m like..oh, it was comming from TV..thank God!

 

Each time i hear a new sound i start asking everybody around me..can you hear it too?or is it in my head?! i keep covering my ears to locate the source of sound like a maniac, changing my position, and than i m like..oh, it was comming from TV..thank God!

 

Hello Aura,
I have done this many times at the very beginning of the T journey. You will find this will lessen as time goes by.Dont worry everything will get better.