Hi everyone, I'm so happy to have found this forum. It's the first one of any kind I've ever joined- I'm not even on Facebook. But since these symptoms hit me over the last few weeks, I knew I had to reach out for help. I wasn't even sure that I'd get a hit when I googled "Tinnitus support group", but was greatly relieved when I did. There is something inherently comforting about knowing you're not experiencing this thing on your own. I hope someday that I can be someone who offers help to others, but right now, I'm a long way from that. I need your help.
The irony is that I was making a concerted effort since the beginning of the year to take better care of myself; back in the gym, no alcohol, meditating again, devouring books. And then the ringing came. When I went to my Eye, Ear and Nose specialist, it wasn't even that bad, so I was pretty relaxed about what I was experiencing. Later that night, it was as if someone turned up the volume. And it went from predominantly right ear to both.
I guess I don't really have to describe here the feelings and emotions brought on by these symptoms; the sickening, icy fear running through your veins that you have just been condemned to a lifetime of unremitting torment. The hopelessness. The despair, thoughts of suicide. Clearly, so many of you... all of you I suppose, know exactly what I'm talking about.
By the way, as I write this, I have not even had my audiology exam, let alone brain scans of any sort. I will have those things done, but there is just something in my heart telling me that my karma is to deal with this for the rest of my life. How funny to actually be hoping and praying that it's a tumor, since tumors can at least be removed!
I know that from adversity and suffering, real wisdom can come. But boy, the road ahead of me now seems daunting as, well... hell.
To all of you who are suffering like I am right now, we suffer together. Hopefully that is of comfort.
To all of you who have created this forum and who contribute to help others... thank you, thank you, thank you.
The irony is that I was making a concerted effort since the beginning of the year to take better care of myself; back in the gym, no alcohol, meditating again, devouring books. And then the ringing came. When I went to my Eye, Ear and Nose specialist, it wasn't even that bad, so I was pretty relaxed about what I was experiencing. Later that night, it was as if someone turned up the volume. And it went from predominantly right ear to both.
I guess I don't really have to describe here the feelings and emotions brought on by these symptoms; the sickening, icy fear running through your veins that you have just been condemned to a lifetime of unremitting torment. The hopelessness. The despair, thoughts of suicide. Clearly, so many of you... all of you I suppose, know exactly what I'm talking about.
By the way, as I write this, I have not even had my audiology exam, let alone brain scans of any sort. I will have those things done, but there is just something in my heart telling me that my karma is to deal with this for the rest of my life. How funny to actually be hoping and praying that it's a tumor, since tumors can at least be removed!
I know that from adversity and suffering, real wisdom can come. But boy, the road ahead of me now seems daunting as, well... hell.
To all of you who are suffering like I am right now, we suffer together. Hopefully that is of comfort.
To all of you who have created this forum and who contribute to help others... thank you, thank you, thank you.
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you found the right place ive had T for the past 8 months and at first i felt the same way as u, i just wanted to bang my head on a wall
stay home and hide
and i was sooo depressed
thinking i would never have silence ever.... then came the anger
that know one knew what i was hearing
, feeling
and that drove me even more crazy, i too had my new healthy life style on track before T eating right excersing andall that good stuff
i even stop working for 6 months could handle the stress of working. dealing with the stress along with the ringing that know one else could understand
. Then i found this site
and things started to get better i met new people who i call my friends ,people who was ther any time for questions, advice and ideas to help me better understand this T thing. they brought comport to me that i thought i had lost forever.... I Love this site, the people here are in the same boat as we both are and they know what we are going through, but to tell you it does get better i deal with it everyday , but i grew to understand that you cant let it take your life, or hold you back from doing things you love, just remember to protect your ears ( ear plugs) around loud noise really helps
keep reading everyone here as great advice some things work some things dont you need to find what works for you. i'm back to work full time , live life everday more that ever and T has been very good so far ..lol sounds weired hearing how T can sound good right but i am in control now an that make it easeir...
hang in there my friend you will find the light ant the end of this tunnel.... hope this all make sence and helps you out a bit.. 
, and i can even sleep with it
and it comportable my insurance covered half of it , but i would not trade it in for anything.....white noise works for me i do everything with it on except shower lol
it's reallt small but like i said it saved my life ..
......ill send a pic....
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