- Sep 26, 2016
- 1
- Tinnitus Since
- about 16 or 17
- Cause of Tinnitus
- heavy metal and sister screaming in my ears
Had it since I was around 16 or 17, i'm 28 now. I'm Jared, umm.. Listen to heavy metal pretty loud, concerts, parties, raves. Good times, sometimes it feels worth it for the memories and sometimes not. But when I was younger my sister would scream in my bloody ears. High pitched like AHHHHHHHH!! Super high like a tiny bell being rung but with massively loud volume. She hated my metal so she'd run in and turn it off and scream in my ears! She did it about 5 times. But it's also my fault because of my choices too.
Sometimes I can deal with it sometimes not.. umm.. It sucks, my patience is bad, my temper can spike like the volume. My girl understands, she's pretty good to me about it. I get pretty twitchy and restless when its loud, she can tell and she'll walk up and hug me and ask if its loud. She never raises her voice, but as all relationships we do throw our fits at eachother sometimes, and her whiny voice and the ringing can literally drive me temporarily insane. My thoughts and heart quicken to a pace that makes me feel physically sick, and I immedietly need to sit down, at first I thought I was dying or something.. lol. But the doc said I was having panic attacks induced by the tinnitus spikes.
I seem to go through cycles of good and bad sleep. On average it takes me about an hour and a half to get to sleep. At worst I won't sleep at all, tossing and turning until my partner very politely rolls over and calmly asks me if I can sleep on the couch. I do, we got a sweet couch and the dog likes it.
Anyway, I have noticed shifting my focus away from it helpful. And hitting the gym, not because it makes it go away or anything, but it makes me happy, so that can help. What doesn't help though, is my continuing to listen to metal loud in my car. You see, I'm quite stupid. In my mind, it was worth it to get tinnitus because the good times, good music and memories are sorta what life is all about right?
Sometimes I can deal with it sometimes not.. umm.. It sucks, my patience is bad, my temper can spike like the volume. My girl understands, she's pretty good to me about it. I get pretty twitchy and restless when its loud, she can tell and she'll walk up and hug me and ask if its loud. She never raises her voice, but as all relationships we do throw our fits at eachother sometimes, and her whiny voice and the ringing can literally drive me temporarily insane. My thoughts and heart quicken to a pace that makes me feel physically sick, and I immedietly need to sit down, at first I thought I was dying or something.. lol. But the doc said I was having panic attacks induced by the tinnitus spikes.
I seem to go through cycles of good and bad sleep. On average it takes me about an hour and a half to get to sleep. At worst I won't sleep at all, tossing and turning until my partner very politely rolls over and calmly asks me if I can sleep on the couch. I do, we got a sweet couch and the dog likes it.
Anyway, I have noticed shifting my focus away from it helpful. And hitting the gym, not because it makes it go away or anything, but it makes me happy, so that can help. What doesn't help though, is my continuing to listen to metal loud in my car. You see, I'm quite stupid. In my mind, it was worth it to get tinnitus because the good times, good music and memories are sorta what life is all about right?
Member