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4alien2

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I wake up every morning with suicidal thoughts. I need to muster up the courage to do this. Jan 10, 2024

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    1. Supersix
      Supersix
      @4alien2
      Hi there! I wanted to check in and ask how you're feeling today. How's everything going?
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    2. 4Grace
      4Grace
      I a, thinking and praying for you. No need to respond. I hope you are doing okay.
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    3. 4Grace
      4Grace
      How are you doing ?
    4. 4alien2
      4alien2
      I wake up every morning with suicidal thoughts. I need to muster up the courage to do this.
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      3. Daphne91
        Daphne91
        @4alien2 on the one hand it’s good that tinnitus is not what’s most bothering for you.I’m sure the ETD can get better too! I have bouts when my ears feel pressure and they click when I swallow! Is that what you feel?
        Jan 31, 2024
      4. Daphne91
        Daphne91
        Either way, it sounds like your worsening of ETD is (fairly?) recent? Please give your body and mind time. Please don’t think that because you feel like this now it will be like this forever. Even in people with horrific conditions, our bodies and minds can find amazing ways to adapt if not heal. Please give yourself time ❤️
        Jan 31, 2024
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      5. Daphne91
        Daphne91
        And find small things that give your body and mind comfort, even if the other discomfort is still there.
        Jan 31, 2024
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    5. 4alien2
      4alien2
      The tones are constantly changing. Added fly buzz today. Can ETD do this? Can it go away even if your tones change?
      1. just1morething
        just1morething
        @4alien, I’m getting a CT scan of my jaw Thursday and then seeing a jaw surgeon. I’ve read that TMD can affect your Eustachian tube, possibly causing tinnitus.
        Jan 9, 2024
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      2. 4alien2
        4alien2
        I met with a jaw surgeon who is an expert in his field, and it turned out that I did not have any jaw problems. @just1morething
        Jan 10, 2024
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      3. just1morething
        just1morething
        @4alien2, I managed to change my noise from my left ear to my right somehow, so it could be related to bad posture and neck muscles possibly? Also you could try decongestants like Sudafed. I guess I’m not the best person at giving advice when I have tinnitus myself.
        Jan 10, 2024
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    6. 4alien2
      4alien2
      I don't recognize this face in the mirror
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      3. Lurius
        Lurius
        @4alien2 I don't know you very well, but just remember that you are a wonderful person no matter what condition you may suffer.
        Jan 5, 2024
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      4. 4alien2
        4alien2
        Thank you very much for these nice words @Lurius
        Jan 6, 2024
      5. 4Grace
        4Grace
        Jan 14, 2024
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    7. 4alien2
      4alien2
      My sister screamed at me, she doesn't know anything, I want to kill myself, she doesn't realize it, it hurts so much.
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      2. kingsfan
        kingsfan
        It's difficult to see someone you care about suffer and to feel powerless in helping them. Those emotions can erupt in consequential ways.
        Jan 4, 2024
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      3. 4alien2
        4alien2
        Sometimes they still fight with me like I'm the old me. I don't have the strength because I'm not that girl anymore @kingsfan
        Jan 4, 2024
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      4. 4Grace
        4Grace
        “I’m not that guy anymore” this has changed me too. Night and day.
        Jan 5, 2024
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    8. 4alien2
      4alien2
      I have never been a suicidal person, even on my worst day…. I have been waking up with this thought every morning for 2 years.
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      3. Tryn2BHopeful
        Tryn2BHopeful
        Me either but this condition pushes your limits. I think that it seems to be so sudden of a change to our lives makes it harder.
        Dec 30, 2023
      4. SarahMLFlemmer
        SarahMLFlemmer
        Something has gotta give!
        Dec 31, 2023
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      5. 4Grace
        4Grace
        I am so sorry. I feel your pain.
        Jan 4, 2024
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    9. 4alien2
      4alien2
      I think I found the cause of the chronic eustachian dysfunction I experience, I'll use this place to explain
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      2. Tryn2BHopeful
        Tryn2BHopeful
        My father used it for years. Never etd. I used it for a while 15 years ago and got hooked due to the rebound effect, took a few weeks to get back to normal.
        Dec 29, 2023
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      3. 4alien2
        4alien2
        I may have used the spray wrong. I was tilting my head back and squeezing it so that it flowed down my throat. I didn't know about eustachian tubes. After 8 months of use, I suddenly woke up with ear congestion. @Tryn2BHopeful
        Dec 29, 2023
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      4. Hardwell
        Hardwell
        Interesting, my worsening of tinnitus happened after stopping a decongestant that I was using for 6 months+ straight. First few days a stuffy ear sensation then one morning full on crazy tinnitus
        Jan 11, 2024
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    10. 4alien2
      4alien2
      I can't find anyone like me. I feel like a unique case, I hope I die
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      3. 4alien2
        4alien2
        I think everything has a solution, but we are helpless to get it. @SarahMLFlemmer
        Dec 23, 2023
      4. Isaac Ramsay
        Isaac Ramsay
        If it makes you feel any better I’m currently in a huge spike due to ETD
        Dec 24, 2023
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      5. 4alien2
        4alien2
        I feel sorry for you. Eustachian dysfunction is hell. @Isaac Ramsay
        Dec 24, 2023
    11. 4alien2
      4alien2
      My eustachian tube gets blocked while I sleep. Congestion develops during sleep. Does anyone know why this is happening?
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      2. 4alien2
        4alien2
        Probably. The strange thing is that I sleep and during sleep my eustachian tube is blocked and I wake up with ear pressure @Tryn2BHopeful
        Dec 21, 2023
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      3. kingsfan
        kingsfan
        Have you had an allergy test? Could it be a dust mite allergy?
        Dec 21, 2023
      4. 4alien2
        4alien2
        Yes, I tested, I'm not allergic to dust. I also tried sleeping with my head elevated. What's interesting for me is that it clogs up during sleep. Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and swallow repeatedly. It opens a little. Then I fall asleep again and it gets blocked again because I sleep, so sometimes I don't sleep at all. @kingsfan
        Dec 21, 2023
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    12. 4alien2
      4alien2
      My doctor said there was no allergy or fluid in the eustachian tube. He tells me to see a maxillofacial surgeon and that this could be TMJ
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      3. 4alien2
        4alien2
        you are right. I live in Turkey. It is quite difficult to find a doctor here when it comes to tinnitus. I hope I have TMJ. I'm so tired of trying to find the cause of eustachian dysfunction. @just1morething
        Dec 20, 2023
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      4. 4alien2
        4alien2
        Dec 20, 2023
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      5. 4alien2
        4alien2
        Last night I was checking my jaw joint for pain or tenderness by pressing with my hands. After pressing the left chin, I felt auditory fullness and my tinnitus tone changed. I think it might be TMJ after this symptom @just1morething
        Dec 20, 2023
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    13. 4alien2
      4alien2
      I will see the ENT tomorrow, maybe I can have Eustachian surgery, please pray for me. :(
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      2. BB23
        BB23
        go to medipol mega university hospital, find oğuz yılmaz, talk to him. he might be of help. maybe. he specifically is interested in tinnitus.
        Dec 18, 2023
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    14. 4alien2
      4alien2
      What a Christmas, huh? :(
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      2. SarahMLFlemmer
        Dec 5, 2023
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      3. 4Grace
        4Grace
        Always loved the holidays. I may be all alone this year. Always believed in true love and caring. With chronic illness friends and family don’t want to be a part of it. They rather you not be around. Feel so alone. Fact of life. Hardest lesson I learned. Had so many friends. So so sad for me. I’m super emotional. Another problem.
        Dec 6, 2023
      4. 4Grace
        4Grace
        You know that girl on Americas got talent. Goes by the stage name black bird. Sings it’s ok. I cried to that when I was without T. Listened to it the other day … eyouch. What an emotional rollercoaster. That’s no me.
        Dec 6, 2023
    15. 4Grace
      4Grace
      Hey - How are you doing? Praying for us.
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      2. 4alien2
        4alien2
        Hello my dear friend. I'm not well, ear congestion/fullness is putting me in the grave. @4Grace
        Dec 3, 2023
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      3. 4Grace
        4Grace
        I feel the same my friend. So sorry we are all suffering. Just insane.
        Dec 6, 2023
    16. 4alien2
      4alien2
      I don't want to, but I have to die. Because of the ear blockage :(( :(( :((
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      2. 4alien2
        4alien2
        Thank you for your support, friends. I lost my faith because I have been suffering from ear blockage for 2 and a half years. The worst part is that it is muscle related. I wish an antihistamine would solve this, but I'm not even allergic anyway. I can't live like this
        Dec 1, 2023
      3. SarahMLFlemmer
        SarahMLFlemmer
        @4alien2 I hope you can find SOMETHING that helps!!
        Dec 3, 2023
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      4. HearingHell
        HearingHell
        I didn't realize you had it for that long. I'm sorry, that sounds awful. I hope you figure this out soon.
        Dec 3, 2023
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    17. 4alien2
      4alien2
      please please helpppp, Is there anyone like me here?
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      2. 4alien2
        4alien2
        I am experiencing ear congestion due to a different problem. Unfortunately, ordinary antihistamines and nasal sprays do not help. My problem is the muscles that activate the eustachian. @Rockman
        Dec 1, 2023
      3. SarahMLFlemmer
        SarahMLFlemmer
        I understand.
        Dec 1, 2023
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      4. Rockman
        Rockman
        Ok, what a bugger! Is it mold or allergy related?
        Dec 3, 2023
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    18. 4alien2
      4alien2
      Oh no My ear is blocked again please help me :((
      1. 4Grace
        4Grace
        :( ❤️ Feel so much for everyone on this forum. I really do. Just a little space for hope. Keep a little space.
        Nov 27, 2023
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      2. 4Grace
        4Grace
        I feel so much for everyone on this forum. I really do. Just keep a little space for some hope. Always a little room for hope.
        Nov 27, 2023
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    19. 4alien2
      4alien2
      Last night I was poisoned by too much magnesium (supplement). I have to take it. I don't want my ear to be blocked. I'd rather die.
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      2. HearingHell
        HearingHell
        Hope you're feeling better from that soon. How high was the dose?
        Nov 14, 2023
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        4alien2
        Nov 14, 2023
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    20. xLuchiaaa
      xLuchiaaa
      Can I maybe ask how you find out that your had problems with Eustachian, One of the first docs who I saw for T said that maybe it can be Eustachian by me
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      2. 4alien2
        4alien2
        Unfortunately, I constantly experience ear fullness and congestion. The only thing that helps is taking magnesium. It's causing me a problem worse than tinnitus. @xLuchiaaa
        Nov 13, 2023
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    21. 4alien2
      4alien2
      I feel suffocated and can't breathe anymore because of my ear problems.
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      3. xLuchiaaa
        xLuchiaaa
        Wish there was a hug button instead of the like button ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
        Nov 13, 2023
      4. 4alien2
        4alien2
        You are wonderful human being @4Grace
        Nov 13, 2023
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        4alien2
        Nov 13, 2023
    22. 4alien2
      4alien2
      I went to the ENT today and had tests done for Eustachian, but unfortunately he said he couldn't do any treatment other than a balloon of ;(
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    23. Supersix
      Supersix
      Hi, @4alien2 Hi, I hope you're doing well. I read your post, and I can relate to your situation. I also suffer from Eustachian tube dysfunction (ETD) and GERD. When my ETD gets backed up with mucus, it causes my tinnitus to spike, and I hear a loud hissing sound all day and into the evening. Do you also have to pop your ears using the Valsalva maneuver, which involves pinching your nose and blowing out?
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      2. Supersix
        Supersix
        I did notice the Sudafed decreased my hissing; however, I had to back off due to my anxiety and insomnia. I cant take them. As of now, I have been on them for only three days when I took them. I wanted to share this to help you or someone else out there. I am seeing a new ENT specialist and have had one visit with him.
        Nov 5, 2023
      3. Supersix
        Supersix
        @4alien2 "I didn't mean to hijack your page.(^,^)
        Nov 5, 2023
      4. 4alien2
        4alien2
        Thank you so much Please let me know when you see your ENT. @Supersix
        Nov 6, 2023
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    24. Juliane
      Juliane
      Hi there. Has your T improved any? ❤️
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      2. 4alien2
        4alien2
        Hello dear Juliane, I am actually working on my left eustachian tube right now. I will see the ENT on Monday. I have chronic left eustachian dysfunction. How arş you? @Juliane
        Nov 4, 2023
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    25. GG_Ear
      GG_Ear
      @4alien2 Have you talked to your ETD about baloon dilation for eustachian tube dysfunction? I'm going to ask mine about this procedure.
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      2. 4alien2
        4alien2
        Hello, no, I have not had any procedure done yet.
        Oct 31, 2023
      3. Supersix
        Supersix
        @GG_EarGood morning! I hope you are doing well. I have been contemplating balloon dilation as a solution to relieve the hissing sound I experience five days a week. However, I am aware of the risks associated with the procedure, as it could lead to a patulous Eustachian tube dysfunction due to excessive widening. During the procedure, they typically inflate the balloon to a diameter of 12-15mm,
        Nov 4, 2023
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    26. object16
      object16
      I shot some OTC spray and then a WHOLE bottle nasal steroid up there. It sounded like the toilet bowl flushed and then I could hear again.
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    27. 4alien2
      4alien2
      My left ear has been blocked for 3 weeks and never opens. How can we solve ETD? I'm actually suicidal because of this.
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      2. 4Grace
        4Grace
        ❤️
        Oct 26, 2023
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      3. Geraldine Watts
        Geraldine Watts
        Mine was blocked for a long time, tried everything… nasal sprays even the balloon procedure, must have contacted the docs every week for weeks, but It did eventually pop which was heaven. So hang in there
        Nov 4, 2023
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      4. 4alien2
        4alien2
        I think there is a problem with the muscles that operate the eustachian, it is a rarer disorder, I don't know the cause, I feel very helpless. @Geraldine Watts
        Nov 4, 2023
    28. 4alien2
      4alien2
      Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans
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    29. SarahMLFlemmer
      SarahMLFlemmer
      Praying for you today.
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      2. 4alien2
        4alien2
        May your prayers be accepted. This message felt so good, I am grateful to you, you are a very special and strong woman, my heart beats for you. <3 @SarahMLFlemmer
        Oct 3, 2023
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    30. 4alien2
      4alien2
      I've always been kind and gentle with life I've always been able to be happy with the little things. But this, man, this is real hell.
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      2. 4alien2
        4alien2
        @BB23 Everything is normal in the hearing test, DPOAE, the left ear is a little weak.
        Oct 3, 2023
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      3. 4alien2
        4alien2
        @BrOKeN_1 I hope we can see a beautiful future despite the pain we endure
        Oct 3, 2023
      4. Juliane
        Juliane
        Oct 3, 2023
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    Gender:
    Female
    Birthday:
    June 16
    Occupation:
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    Tinnitus Since:
    03/2022
    Cause of Tinnitus:
    ETD
    I have no allergies and I am not overweight. I have a mysterious eustachian dysfunction and that's how my tinnitus started. I'm still dealing with etd

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