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Nothing's getting better and I'm becoming more hateful.

Came back here a little early for those Michigan signal timing results hah.

I did The Bad Thing and went to a show last night. T is behaving itself, so I'm very, very relieved.

I was able to briefly experience silence again today.

Whenever I walk with hearing protection on, I hear a high-pitched tone beep in my right ear with every step I take. What in the...

I don’t believe it. I just woke up from a poor night of sleep and my spike is nearly eliminated for no apparent reason.

Good news: the spike I can mostly hear when I'm in a silent or nearly silent area. Bad news: it's relentless and doesn't seem to be fading.

I believe my new symptoms are consistent with hydrops, so I started the AIP or whatever it’s called. I’ll try to stick with it through March

Also, I started wearing plugs/headphones when spending time with my family. Unfortunately, I can’t trust them anymore.

If I could get rid of all the annoying tones in my ears and just have the hissing, that would be more than enough.

I wish I was more excited for all the research news coming this year, but the cycle of disappointment on repeat has toyed with me too much.

I was having an ok day until my brother threw a hot pot lid on the counter right in front of me. I don't know what will happen to my ears.

I don't think I've ever had it this loud before...

I have my BSN now. Next step is passing boards and so that I can continue serving the adult-life sentence.

Ears have been hell lately.

Thinking about potential CRNA dissertation topics and how crazy it would be to somehow relate tinnitus. So crazy. Unless...

Once again, sleep is the answer.

Got a new sound in the right ear that's reactive. I feel like I've had this before and it calmed down then, so I'm trying to wait it out.

I’m interviewing for an ICU position later today. Fingers crossed.

Yeah, my right ear is only getting worse. Don't know what to do about it.

I feel like I haven't been on here forever. Hope everyone is doing fine.

I have not been sleeping well at all recently. It’s starting to feel like everything and everyone is working against me again.

Well, recently developed an annoying low hum out of the blue that's been messing with my sleep. It seems to be traveling between both ears.

Day 2 after 2nd Pfizer: feeling good, no problems. Injection site soreness going down. Most importantly, T is not affected.

Second shot is done. No problems so far. I’m super hungry.

It's funny, I can't remember what my tinnitus sounded like when it first started. It changed so much over the years.

By the way, I think my headaches are getting better. Late vaccine symptom possibly maybe? Regardless, second shot happening this weekend.

I hate being insecure. Self-esteem suicide only helps with pissing my ears off.

I’ve been having headaches and now weakness with dizziness since last week. I’m scared I might have a tumor or something’s about to rupture.

Got my first Pfizer shot about an hour ago. No serious reactions, pain, or changes in tinnitus yet.