Ava Lugo

I pray so hard that I pass away in my sleep to not go through another day with reactive T.

I don’t fucking understand. Why can we fix people with transgender issues but not people with defective brains and cochleae???

So many times i want to take a sledge hammer and just smash my brain into pieces.

Severe tinnitus and severe floaters. A big FUCK YOU to god.

Floaters are much worse than visual snow.

I know I should be happy for my coworker but she is 50 pounds more than me with no tinnitus. We are both obese. God why?

God is a fucking piece of shit no matter what anyone says. He would not allow torment and suffering if he was caring.

I am so fucking tired of living with reactive T. im trying stuff too like gabenpentin but only works for a few days...

Hmm let’s fucking see...first a year and a half with reactive tinnitus now I’m noticing more eye floaters than ever, what’s next??

Eww music doesn’t sound good with reactive tinnitus. It sounds like robots having sex with each other (to me).

I can't motherfucking believe we only got one life. If we had ten lives left this bullshit wouldn't be as bad.

Booze makes music sound better. I feel like i hear it more in it it's true form.

Fuck God. Im officially an atheist.

One of my best memories is when I went to Apache lake with my dog and dad and listened to music and dranked.

It is extremely hard to "habituate" to something that severely limits you. Maybe non reactive T you can habituate...

Fuck. All of us on this forum deserve a healthy auditory system. Every single one of us.

People whine about how they can't ever enjoy the wilderness again, say waterfalls and crickets MASK their ringing. Give a break.

When I remember my past life, it’s like rembering someone that died. It’s creepy and depressing.

It fucking sucks living with other people when you got severe disabling reactive tinnitus.

Welp after a night of drinking and having a little fun, once I sober up, here I am back in nightmarevill.

I wish my tinnitus was just tinnitus and nothing else but of course it just HAD to come with special features...

My friend gets to live in the real world while I’m stuck in the twilight zone :(

Lol my neighbors are playing loud music excersising their auditory systems then theres me. Cheers to another hellish year!

All i want is a pair of healthy ears for Christmas and my life back. Santa is that too much to ask?

Envious of all my friends. Their auditory system isnt capable of being evil like mine.

It’s unfortunate that healthiness is not contagious. Me and my healthy eared friend kissed yesterday. I only wished I was blessed like him.

When do I get time off from hell ?

I wish I could just make my auditory system healthy but I don't have that choice :(

Miss hearing clearly without the ringing tainting it. Hearing is such a beautiful thing. Without it, its like asking a fish not to swim.

Why does it seem like it’s older folks in their 50s with severe tinnitus but young 20s people have quiet tinnitus? Anyone notice this?