Juliane

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I like you too @Juliane!

it's probably one of the only things I feel relieved about. I wouldn't have the capacity to care for them.

Sorry.. i feel you.. what i say to myself is.. give yourself time.. pff.. trying to slow down, find some distractions, somehow untense as much as you possibly can (t i can't control, but somehow trying to find mindfulness calmth.. which more often than not i couldn't), and give yourself time..

@Juliane - so sorry - i am with you at this moment. I feel and live this. I want to tell you comforting words. Something that would help you. What can we do.. how do we move forward.

@gameover Unbearable tinnitus and H.

the people around me think the same. they think it's like a brief few seconds of annoyance and everything is back to normal. They think we are all freaking out over nothing vs their issue (that is more important than T) that is easily fixed/managed by meds.

So sad @Juliane. It is a crazy condition. You were good and stable for so many years. One exposure and messed up. I went from all good to all bad right away. No warning. It seems once certain level is reached, it is only down from there, short of miracles.

@Juliane - after 1.5 years my family telling me to take Mirt then I will be able to go to loud places and deal with the noise better. They don’t want to hear it anymore yet I have been unable to have them truly understand. @gameover / it’s true - just takes that last exposure.

I can relate. I never liked sharing an office due to all the extra chatter, noise, interruptions, food smells, etc. And that's with only 1 or 2 others before I had severe T. Fortunately, I eventually got my own office.

@4Grace I agree with you. My tinnitus is so bad that there is nothing I enjoy. I have to work even though I struggle/suffer through it. I wouldn’t be in a better situation by any means if I didn’t have to work. My tinnitus is the kind that I can actually feel so it pierces through my ear drums like they’re being cut

@MiaVIL - how do you do it. You are so incredibly strong. Working is better but I physically could not… I worsen with the wind. I reached this new point 2 weeks ago. Can’t drive for 5 min. My ears begin to burn and ring harder.

@4Grace I work from home and there is a tiny ounce- a very tiny ounce that I will recover. Even though it’s minuscule.

I wanted to do anything i could to improve my health. Started experimenting with diets, a plant based diet gave me amazing results overall healthwise. No hate against meat eating, but i think i feel more affinity with animals now, because they also have a nervous system and can feel joy and suffering.

So, the animal industry, i don't view animals so much as an industry anymore. Eating animals i don't think is the worst, but just that they can have a natural and free life would be more humane

That being said.. i would just like to add.. i do believe we as humans have more depth of experience, and are more valuable. But to value animals that they also deserve to be free of unnatural and unnesary suffering.. a more natural life

I used to want to have a nice spot in some nice cemetery. No longer. I don't belong to this world anymore, I don't want to have a grave.

@gameover Do you live near the ocean?

Well, within 1-1.5h drive so not exactly near I guess.

Sorry to read.. i can't share or give any advice.. i just symphatize

This is a common theme on here. People who don't have it severe don't get how much suffering it can cause.

This has been something that's worried me for a couple years. I average about 5 1/2 hours, and I keep seeing news stories that recommend 7 to 8 hours and that not getting enough is unhealthy. And then, add all the anxiety on top of that, which can take its toll on your health as well. Exercise & diet can only do so much.

@RunningMan But do you get sick?

I feel kind of sick sometimes, but I think it's mostly from anxiety, and now from a new sleep med I just started. Also, have apparent nerve pain behind shoulder and ongoing stomach pains for months, that I never used to have until late last year. I got a referral for diagnosis.

@Pinhead I know for sure it is in my head because it follows me around. But since I can somehow manipulate the sound by plugging my ear, I wonder if the sound literally/ organically comes from a place inside my head? I read that true objective tinnitus can be heard by other people eg with a stethoscope

@Tryn2BHopeful Perhaps all the WiFi surrounding us is finally getting to the more sensitive among us :-( It def cannot be healthy with all that electronic shite

I had a tone like this! It was my neighbors noise machine since she had horrible t at night.

Thanks for checking in on me. Struggling at the moment. How are you?

Hi Juliane, sorry to hear that. I hope things turn around for you. I'm ok, I'm not sure if its going down in volume or im getting used to it. I miss silence

I'd rather be lucky than good any day.

Yes. Survival of the fittest doesn't mean the strongest survive. The strongest could die in an accident. It doesn't relate to physical fitness. It means to fit the environment. to avoid all complications of life long enough to pass on your genes.

@BB23 I agree. But even mental strength is also not enough when e.g. having T. It wears you down over time. If it spontaneously lowered that's a different story. Then you are Lucky. Then you start thriving again. But not because of strength. Because of luck. Pure luck.

I desperately wish this was an option - take all my investments and stocks. take all my friends too. don't have a husband, but take him too! i don't care. just give me the damn permanent silence.

In the modern world we think in very limited and self centered ways. I don't think being homeless is the worst thing, compared to this scenario. You could be a farmer and vikings can come invade your land and rip your heart out and eat it to please their gods etc. stuff like this used to happen all the time. nobody in the world is destined to be happy.

@cjbhab So would I! But my point was also that some homeless people probably also have T in addition to other multiple issues. We just never know what people struggle with which is why we should never judge anyone.

i don’t recommend shouting. that will give you a spike.

@cjbhab :-) I know!

imagine being deaf with T!! i would pull the trigger immediately.

@cjbhab I know! That's why being deaf with ZERO T would be the only manageable way. However, being deaf with no T becomes more and more appealing. Funny how life changes your perspective

deaf with zero T, complete 100000% silence - the dream!

It does not comfort me. I was hoping for a good life

Also, I would not know how to follow Jesus even if I wanted to. How does one follow Jesus?

It is nice psycho babble. If it works for one, great. Does not help me, sorry.