So i just looked at the calender.. And realized Today was the day i got T a year ago... A summary of a year with mine is i can mostly say its gone because as i have said before i can only hear it in a completely silent room so living with it the past year was like living without it.. Except the fact that i have panic and gad disorder so i did alot of worrying/panic over concerns and fear of worrsening like we all do and that part still kills me. My heart really goes out to all of you that are staying strong with this and that have it worse. Although my T is barely there i cant say im a success story cause the "thought" of it kills me. Im not a very strong person and i can honestly say that i have never been so scared of something in my life. I had fleeting T 5 times today for only a 1-2 sec each and i immediately jumped into panic mode and had to take a pill to calm me down. I know fleeting t is normal but somehow everytime it happens i think " my T is worrsening". Maybe i need counselling idk what i need but the worst part about it is that in the past year ive read so much about tinnitus as we all have and feel like i know more then any doctor. You cant trust what there gonna give you, they can be incompetent and overall no one understands it without having it. I guess i feel so alone with my fears and i know your all here but it sucks when friends/family dont get it. Im proud of myself for protecting my ears the past year the best i could, ofcorse there were dishes dropped accidently, doors slammed, fireworks, and i realised that my T never spiked but i would get more reaccuring fleeting T :-/ so im thinking it has to be connected. All in all i try to stay positive with my fears and live normally, but deep down i dont feel normal. I care too much of others and feel i dont get that back. Lifes a rollercoaster, i could die tonmorrow and i try and live by that everyday. I want to thank everyone on here that has helped me over the last year, your all wonderful souls and we will all get our victory one day. This too shal pass. I went through a breakup, and my mom told me take one day at a time, and i guess thats all i can do with any issue in life. Never giving up the thought of a cure for this cause i know it will happen. God bless you all!