Hey guys,
So wanted to introduce myself. My name's Edwin and I'm not sure what's going on with me, but yeah, I have tinnitus right now.
Here's what happened...
2 weeks ago I was listening to music at work on my earbuds, and when I pulled them out I heard this static sound out of my left ear. When I moved my jaw around the static frequency would change and get louder or quieter. This went away after 5 minutes. But I was left with a ringing sound in my left ear a day later sounded like it was coming out of both ears or inside my head--hard to tell.
The ringing sounds at about a 3. During the day I can hear it faintly if I pay attention, but it does get drowned out by normal everyday sounds. I went to urgent care and the doctor said it should probably go away in a few days. But days went by and the more I googled around the more I started to panic. Reading how tinnitus is incurable and listening to some of the horror stories freaked me out.
I've haven't really had anxiety before outside of normal things like social events or presentations, stuff like that. But I was flooded by anxiety and panic. I felt deep dread for the first time. I had dark thoughts about how this would be with me my whole life. How I would get married with tinnitus in my ear, see my child born with tinnitus in my ear, grow old with tinnitus in my ear--you get the picture. I even thought about suicide briefly. Something I never thought I'd ponder, but just a momentary thought, thankfully.
I was angry at myself. And just sad. Really sad.
My dad suffers from anxiety attacks and this made me relate to him so deeply. I talk to him about it and in an effort to help him I had read up on anxiety so I was lucky that I already knew some ways to cope which helped me out a lot.
Anyways...
So I go to my primary doctor and he says it may go away, but he ends up looking up my nose and says I have allergies. Puts me on claritin and nasal steroid spray. He says something about how sound escapes through the nose and it should probably get rid of it.
The next two days it seemed to make my tinnitus quieter, maybe a 1 or 2 and sometimes I swear I couldn't hear it at all. I felt pure relief and joy. But a couple days later it came back at about a 3 again.
Got referred to an ENT (that never answers his phone) so I'm trying to get an appointment at the moment. I've got allergies, congestion, and has some slight damage from an accident a couple years ago where i landed on my nose and cut it open (never went to the doc for it).
I'm hoping to finally get answers so I can figure out how to proceed.
Funny enough, I talked to my dad and he said he has tinnitus too, and has had it for years after working with loud drills. He said it gets better and it doesn't bug him at all. Says he can't hear it unless he focuses on it.
My dad and people's stories here give me hope that it gets better. And for that I thank you. But I wake up wishing every day that it just goes away.
I've made a promise to take care of myself. And so far I have. I've lost like 6 pounds because I'm walking and exercising daily to help with the anxiety, and I'm eating super clean. Also gave up vaping, alcohol, and caffeine.
So wanted to introduce myself. My name's Edwin and I'm not sure what's going on with me, but yeah, I have tinnitus right now.
Here's what happened...
2 weeks ago I was listening to music at work on my earbuds, and when I pulled them out I heard this static sound out of my left ear. When I moved my jaw around the static frequency would change and get louder or quieter. This went away after 5 minutes. But I was left with a ringing sound in my left ear a day later sounded like it was coming out of both ears or inside my head--hard to tell.
The ringing sounds at about a 3. During the day I can hear it faintly if I pay attention, but it does get drowned out by normal everyday sounds. I went to urgent care and the doctor said it should probably go away in a few days. But days went by and the more I googled around the more I started to panic. Reading how tinnitus is incurable and listening to some of the horror stories freaked me out.
I've haven't really had anxiety before outside of normal things like social events or presentations, stuff like that. But I was flooded by anxiety and panic. I felt deep dread for the first time. I had dark thoughts about how this would be with me my whole life. How I would get married with tinnitus in my ear, see my child born with tinnitus in my ear, grow old with tinnitus in my ear--you get the picture. I even thought about suicide briefly. Something I never thought I'd ponder, but just a momentary thought, thankfully.
I was angry at myself. And just sad. Really sad.
My dad suffers from anxiety attacks and this made me relate to him so deeply. I talk to him about it and in an effort to help him I had read up on anxiety so I was lucky that I already knew some ways to cope which helped me out a lot.
Anyways...
So I go to my primary doctor and he says it may go away, but he ends up looking up my nose and says I have allergies. Puts me on claritin and nasal steroid spray. He says something about how sound escapes through the nose and it should probably get rid of it.
The next two days it seemed to make my tinnitus quieter, maybe a 1 or 2 and sometimes I swear I couldn't hear it at all. I felt pure relief and joy. But a couple days later it came back at about a 3 again.
Got referred to an ENT (that never answers his phone) so I'm trying to get an appointment at the moment. I've got allergies, congestion, and has some slight damage from an accident a couple years ago where i landed on my nose and cut it open (never went to the doc for it).
I'm hoping to finally get answers so I can figure out how to proceed.
Funny enough, I talked to my dad and he said he has tinnitus too, and has had it for years after working with loud drills. He said it gets better and it doesn't bug him at all. Says he can't hear it unless he focuses on it.
My dad and people's stories here give me hope that it gets better. And for that I thank you. But I wake up wishing every day that it just goes away.
I've made a promise to take care of myself. And so far I have. I've lost like 6 pounds because I'm walking and exercising daily to help with the anxiety, and I'm eating super clean. Also gave up vaping, alcohol, and caffeine.