6 months in, despite avoiding all loud sounds, despite avoiding most things in general, tinnitus has not improved, hyperacusis has set in, and worst of all, I still have reactive tinnitus, and do not hear sounds properly in certain frequency ranges. For instance, on a television program I can hear the people talking, then when there is a string arrangement in the background, i mainly just hear modulated sine waves, instead of the actual strings. Refrigerators, showers, everything produces a high pitched tone in addition to it's sound (I'm sure this is my hearing, while many things in life naturally produce a high pitched frequency (like old tvs) this sound is very different, and others do not hear it at all, and it wasnt there before, and there seem to be about a few different tones that things will trigger in my ears, its hard to explain. This happened literally the only single time I ever went to a show without earplugs, and of all things, 20 seconds after i stood close to a speaker, someone triggered a rediculously loud sound, loudest i ever heard. Why. Seriously. I had been there 3 times before and the volume had been so quiet, like 70db or less, I brought earplugs, but didn't need them. This time they cranked it part way through, and then on top of that, one of the performers triggered this rediculously loud sound. There were only 2 other people on the dancefloor, and i had just walked down the stairs to join them, and I was closest to the speaker when this sound went off, my one ear closest to the speaker is much more severely affected, so I don't even know if they were affected. I can't escape it, even just going grocery shopping, they play music on crappy speakers on the ceiling, i hear all the horrible resonant sounds over parts of the music...makes me feel horrible, when i see people working outdoors wearing hearing protection, i get this horrible feeling in my stomach. My personal life is turned upside down, and I have no social life, I was trying hard to get a social life which is why I pushed myself to go to that show, to meet other musicians. This is a nightmare. I have to hold onto some hope that it will get better, but seriously, it looks grim, even if it got better, what are the chances i could safely go to festivals, make music, and perform again, even with earplugs, I can't enjoy music anymore the way it is now, at any volume, hearing these sounds in/overtop of it is just too depressing. Even when I watch documentaries, or listen to podcasts on youtube, the little jingles or musical interludes, it all just reminds me of this. And worst of all, I've now noticed that some people's voices do have this resonant tone overtop, but luckily speech is so broken up that hearing that ringing on top of words doesn't really bother you so much, compared to hearing it overtop of music. Bad things happen to people but somehow i feel like this is harder to deal with than say, a random severe illness. Like if I had gotten struck by lightning, and lost my hearing, AND my ability to walk or something, that would be "worse" objectively, but it would be way easier to deal with psychologically, if you know what i mean?