7 Months On, I'm In a Better Place

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by grecianmax87, Feb 4, 2016.

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    1. grecianmax87

      grecianmax87 Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      07/2015
      Hey guys.

      I'm 28 and have been reading this forum on and off since I got tinnitus.

      Around July last year I woke up with loud ringing in my ear around an 8. Not totally sure why, I'd been on a loud night out but had also jammed an earbud (q tip) too far into my ear the previous day. My theory is I damaged the eardrum with the earbud and then later on in a very loud pub did the worst thing and stood next to a speaker....

      Anyway after a day the ringing had gone, like loads of other nights out. What became clear was I had Lost my hearing in that ear - the left one (down to 20%) which lasted for about a month until I the ringing returned. My hearing improved in that ear but after multiple hearing tests I have permanent lost around 30% of my hearing)

      Since all this, I did the standard stuff -

      - panic (I'm naturally a concerned person with health stuff)

      - mask the hell out of it

      - felt depressed that the consistent whine - the volume was always between 6-10 - was never going to leave

      Your reaction to tinnitus has a massive effect. Whenever I was stressed it increased dramatically. Around 6 weeks after I had this, I went on a lads holiday in the US for 2 weeks. It didn't go but it taught me that if you distract yourself it can go into the background.

      Unfortunately when I returned my long term girlfriends father was admitted to hospital and after 4 weeks passed away. This caused my tinnitus to rocket again as it was an awful time.

      Since then, very slowly, it has been improving. The tone has shifted to a white noise, almost subtle electrical sound. Volume is around 0-3 and only ever gets to a 4/5 if I've been to a loud play and quickly calms after that.

      Things that have helped me:

      - don't mask it when you sleep. To begin with that is hell, but over time being in silence with it is be best way to help your brain adjust and get used to it. I always had noises in the quiet as everyone does, but although louder now, I react as I used to it. Genuinely the best thing I did getting rid of the fan/nature sounds

      - ice pack your ear when it spikes. I read somewhere that cold can help calm the auditory nerve. Who knows whether this is true - all I know is that it helps calm mine down. Maybe it's distracting.

      - accept that it's there. It might not ever go, but that's fine with me now. I would never had said that when it started.

      - don't use headphones. I was a regular user at work, I haven't used them since July

      - give your ears a rest. I have been out to clubs a few times and own musicians ear plugs. I go to pubs etc regularly and it's fine, I'll have a mini spike (up to 3/4 in volume) but that'll be it. Generally I've been careful of loud places. Life adjustments, obviously I'm still pretty young so like going out etc, but I value my hearing and mental happiness over a random night.

      Your perception will change and it will fade. I never thought that would happen and at one point felt completely broken. It seemed impossible. I'm back to myself and have learned to deal with it. It's not perfect but then neither are my knees, that doesn't ruin my life and neither does a buzzing noise ;) Keep your heads up!
       
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    2. ceauses97
      Speechless

      ceauses97 Member

      Location:
      Norway
      Tinnitus Since:
      06/12/15
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      loud music/chemotherapy/hypercalcemia
      ...did your internet connection die?
       
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    3. grecianmax87

      grecianmax87 Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      07/2015
      Typed on my iPhone, finger slipped!
       
    4. baz 22
      Alone

      baz 22 Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      01/2016
      thanks for the story, maybe there is hope.
       
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    5. grecianmax87

      grecianmax87 Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      07/2015
      There is. I saw that you had mentioned you've had yours for 5 weeks. I can't lie to you, you may be in it for the long run.

      But take small changes as big positives. Don't look back and think what it was like, try to adapt and accept that it is with you. Distract yourself as much as you possibly can and mask it if it gets unbearable but don't over do that. The best way I can describe how it improves is it becomes normal. I can hear it now but have no emotional response to it.

      I made sure I posted on this forum because I was in your position and remember what it was like, looking for answers and positive news. Try not to read too much of forums, I found them a depressing read and all it did was remind me of my tinnitus. Do the things you enjoy and it'll fade.
       
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    6. grecianmax87

      grecianmax87 Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      07/2015
      I thought I'd give an update!

      I'm now roughly 14 months into this.

      As I posted in February I was doing well and despite some slight ups and downs the tinnitus has reduced significantly further. Also my sensitivity to loud sounds has gone right down, which is great as I commute by train now, something I would never have done a year ago (British trains are old and noisy)

      I barely hear the tinnitus now in the day time it is very much something I only hear at night now. The last 2/3 months have been really interesting with a sudden improvement to what was already a manageable level of tinnitus.

      I never believed it would go, but now comparing myself to different stages I have to say I think it'll be gone soon enough :)
       
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    7. Sebastians

      Sebastians Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      13/10/2015
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Guitars, loud girls and guns
      Thanks for your update, very few people make the effort to report back after their symptoms have improved. Hope your T keeps on fading!
      How did this sudden improvement come about? You just woke up one day and it was much lower?
       
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    8. grecianmax87

      grecianmax87 Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      07/2015
      No problem at all - the whole experience has had a big effect on my life - at one point it was all-encompassing and this forum was a very good source of encouragement especially this section.

      It's difficult to understand or believe until it has begun to fade but I believe this must be the process of habituation. I can still hear my tinnitus if I tune into it but it's effect on my mental state is nothing like it was.

      I wouldn't call the improvement "sudden" rather it's part of an ongoing process that feels like any other injury getting better I guess. There's no miracle cure in my eyes (ginkgo, meditation etc) - the simple fact is I have got on with things and over time it has very slowly been pushed to the background. That's the only way I can describe it - at first it was 100% distracting (dial tone loud), then it was there as an annoyance but more like if you were listening to the radio (more like a loud static) Following that the static became softer and quieter with every month that passed - not noticeable day to day or week to week but definately a little less each month if I really thought about t and compared.

      Obviously it's not completely gone otherwise I wouldn't be posting here, but I've been thinking recently how much it's improved which reminded me of the forum. It's a good marker for me to put down where I am and if it helps others in anyway to hear good news then great :)

      Best thing is I have managed to go to a nightclub a couple of times and now I regularly watch live football again. Both things I gave up for a period of time - in the case of clubbing I went a full year without it. That sucked but was probably worth it.
       
    9. Mario martz
      Creative

      Mario martz Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      02/2016
      Hey grecian thats awesome!
      thanks for reporting back.
      some people improve but never come back to report that they are doing well.
      thanks for posting.
       
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    10. Path Maker

      Path Maker Member Benefactor

      Tinnitus Since:
      12/2015
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      acoustic
      @grecianmax87 Thank you for all your posts! It is most encouraging to hear about not only the first stages but also the later stages of it fading, as you are reporting here. Would you please come back here and post every month or so, to let us know the further things you notice?

      It would be sooooo appreciated to hear your story.

      So glad it's working out for you, and thanks for coming back!

      (I personally THINK I may be in the "gradually healing" stages you've experienced earlier - but need more time to really assess that. Your post is encouraging.)

      :) :) :)
       
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    11. grecianmax87

      grecianmax87 Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      07/2015
      I can't promise every month but I'll update as and when I feel like it's improved further.

      If you feel like it's gradually calming down, keep the faith and try to use the less distracting noise to your advantage and think/do things without tinnitus being "up in your face" so to speak.

      I'll also reiterate that my initial 2-3 months of tinnitus was pretty severe so everyone should have hope.
       
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    12. Path Maker

      Path Maker Member Benefactor

      Tinnitus Since:
      12/2015
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      acoustic
      Thanks, @grecianmax87 ! And yes, it's not a school assignment! :) Just let us know how you are from time to time, totally at your covenience! :) :) :)
       
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