HI GUYS! So yes, its me Anne. I have joined TT since september last year if I'm not mistaken because of a sudden T onset. I know a lot of people here who have really, really made a big impact on me. People who understood how you feel, people who knows exactly what your going through because your all on the same boat. I remember those days where I would sit infront of my laptop for the WHOLE ENTIRE DAY and just post stuff here on TT hoping to get that supporting kind words from other people, which really does work and makes me feel a whole lot better. I would usually post stuff everyday, sometimes twice a day which I think really annoyed some people on here, hahaha sorry about that On my first few months YES, i was depressed, scared, worried, I too experience those anxiety and panic attacks, feeling like there's no more hope, like I was doomed forever in this eerie noise inside my head. But boy was I wrong Yes, like others here my T does change in pitch, tone, even the sound itself. Which makes coping with it even harder, you might feel like there's no more hope but trust me.. THERE IS. I think my last post here was about my T being gone for like days in a row, and a lot of you guys have been wondering if it ever came back... Well to answer that... YES it did come back. Hahahahaha, But don't worry! I'm not here to make you feel miserable and hopeless if ever your T does disappear. Its just that even after that moment when I woke up like a week later with T back again with me that I thought "Meeeeeh, screw it" I stopped fighting it I learned to live with it. I know easier said than done but it does happen sooner or later if you just will it. Yes, till this day from my last post my T is still here with me, sometimes its so low I couldn't even hear anything, sometimes It flares for a few seconds that all I hear is that ringing noise, then sometimes there are also those days where its so loud that its all I hear. But then there I go continuing life where i stopped when my T onset happened. That's pretty much it, something that I just wanted to share. is this even the right category for this? hahahaha. Imissed all of my friends in here, if you guys read this and you do know me. Please do leave a comment! You guys were my strength and like my family who helped me get my life back on track <3 Sincerely Anne.