Feeling So Very Sad and Hopeless

@emmalee
I’m so sorry to hear about your hearing loss.
I’m glad you are seeing the ENT soon
I know about very high pitched sounds.

Yes, do your best to stay calm.
I know that’s not easy to do.

I will read your thread.

 

@TracyJS
You are very sweet, Tracy, thank-you yet again.

 

@emmalee

I'm not one to rock the boat. That's why I want to leave the info at the front desk for the ENT. I hope I find the courage to do it.

 

@TracyJS

How are you doing today, Tracy?

 

@emmalee
Thank you for asking.

It’s been a rough day. Lots of stressors. Having to make some difficult decisions about moving/financial matters.
And T is quite loud and intrusive today.

How are you today?

 

Hi Tracy
Sounds like you’re having a rough day. It’s a holiday weekend here in the UK and been very hot and sunny.
If you are having a lot of stressors your T will sound louder.
Have you had anyone to talk to distract a bit.
Sorry it’s difficult, I know that well.
Eve
@TracyJS

 

I do share your sadness and hopelessness. Due to my T & H, I have problem to sleep.
I avoid people. I avoid loud places. Most of the time, I stay home.
So, you are not alone. We will support each others and move on.
I try not to worry too much about future.
I count it one day at a time and make sure that I live this day well.

The great ancient saint Confucius in China once said -
" A person with great integrity will not be alone. He always will have many friends".
The same is TRUE -
"A person with Tinnitus will not be alone. He (or she) has many friends in Tinnitus Talk."

Hanging there and may God richly bless you !!

 

I haven't read the entire thread, so sorry if I'm repeating stuff. First of all, most likely you'll feel better, since we tend to adapt a little to the noise (I say this not knowing how loud yours is), but also, the T sort of feeds off anxiety and the more you listen for it, the more you notice it. It's much easier said than done, but try not to listen for it in the car or outside.

When you're masking it, try setting the volume of the masking sound below that of your tinnitus and try "listening through" the t, focusing on the masking noise.

Good luck and I hope you feel better soon!

 

How’s your spike? You feeling any better lately?

 

I am good, Tracy. Feeling a little more quiet than usual for some reason. It could be that I am more tired than I realize. You surely can relate to this.

Is it that you don't want to move, or is just the thought of the actual moving day process? I know that can trigger anxiety, even when we are not suffering with tinnitus.

 

@emmalee
I don’t really want to move, but financial circumstances dictate that I do.
It’s going to be very stressful it will be a noisy place so I have concerns about that.

 

I can see how a noisy place would concern you. Financial worries and moving can up the stress level, this is a given. I am so sorry that this is going on in your life right now.

 

@TracyJS

Tracy, will you be able to take your beloved kitty with you to your new place?

 

@emmalee
Oh, yes. That was a must.

 

Thank heavens for this.

I once found myself where you are right now, having to move for financial reasons and not wanting to leave my little apartment. To make matters worse I wasn't allowed to bring my cat. Too long and too sad of a story to go into, I just panicked a little thinking that you may not be able to keep your little guy.

 

@TracyJS

Tracy, look at this little one!

 

@emmalee
I’m so sorry you could not bring your kitty.
That must have been so sad. No worries...I’m going to be able to bring my little girl (Riley is a girl)!

 

Oh my god, so very cute! Is that your dog?

 

She is the newest member of the family!

I wanted to share this with you because we both posted photos of ourselves as little girls and we were both holding our little dogs.

 

@emmalee

Oh, congratulations! I love animals so much. I have had cats in my adult years, but I had my beloved dog in childhood. Is it a he or she?

 

My sincerest apologies to little Miss Riley. I should have known that she was a girl, she is so pretty.

 

She is a she!

 

@emmalee

She’s beautiful!!

 

Thank-you!

 

No apologies necessary.

 

Yes, stressors can sure make T louder. Unfortunately, this will be a stressful time. Have to do my best to manage.
I hope things are better for you?
Tracy

 

Thank you for your thoughtful and caring response.
I have have been touched deeply by the support and kindness so many have shown to me.
Many tender hearted people...and you are one of them.

 

Hi. Thanks for asking. It's still there so I'm pretty much accepting that it's not a spike, but a permanent increase. However, I'm handling it OK and not letting it wreck me as it did in the beginning. I don't know if it's SSRI (low dose) helping me out or if it's just habituation.

How's yours?

 

Hello Tracy
Every day a battle for me.
Some neck pain from the RTC impact still.
Finding I’m really depressed again and that had improved a bit. So tired, was like a zombie yesterday and things to do piling up!
Gone back to bad sleep, so not great.
I so hope we both feel happier soon.
Eve x
@TracyJS

 

That’s not so good, but the fact you are feeling better in yourself is great. It’s probably a mixture of both helping you move forward. I am good thanks, taking each day as it comes, the usual haha