Feeling So Very Sad and Hopeless

Errrm, correction Dave. What you meant to say was: “I’m a jazz legend”.

 

@Ed209

“I’m a leg-end in my own Lunchtime.....!”

 

Hey @Jazzer you better not change your user name!!! Even if you are not playing music now it is who you are. And that my friend will never change.

@TracyJS
I am glad you will continue and we can also give little life updates. Today I am in this weird mood and I am not sure why. A neighbor up the street cut down this beautiful tree in his front yard. I think that is one reason. I get so emotional when trees are killed for no reason.

Blah blah....

 

@TracyJS

Hi, Tracy.

I have been in out of the house most of day and have managed to check in here at TT a couple of times. It is so incredibly hot here today but I must not complain, this past winter was too long and too cold.

I am hoping that you are doing well today, Tracy.

 

Hi Emma,

It is very hot here as well. It’s 95 degrees.
My day has been ok, which is good for me.
I hope your day has gone well.

Tracy

 

Do you mean your t faded away and you almost don't hear it anymore or you just aren't bothered as much ? T is always worse when you are focused on it...

 

@Starthrower
Yes, I don’t like to see trees cut down either.
They are so majestic and they endure for so long.

 

It faded away by 90% so far. The first time I had T (12 years ago) it was also screaming loud, it it completely faded away 100% in about 2 years.

 

@TracyJS and @emmalee and everyone else....

Memorial Day here in the states. Thank you to all the veterans who serve(ed) our country. I still remember the Iowa service when I was presented the folded flag for my Uncle. He was 93 and from the military life and included me into that world. Now, we support programs for veterans. Sigh...

I am now going outside to attack this bush that bugs me. I am determined to make it look pretty.

 

Ok is good.

My day has been busy. I have a new doctor and he scheduled blood work, bone density, etc. etc. Today I was finishing up the last of the tests, had some lunch, browsed through Chapters and even bought a couple of books. IT. IS. SO. HOT! You must be feeling the heat, too.

 

Good luck with the bush, Starthrower, I hope it turns out the way you want it to.

 

@emmalee
It sounds like you did have a busy day.
Hopefully, seeing this new doctor will be helpful.

My day isn’t so good. Tinnitus was mild yesterday, but isn’t so good right now.
Anxious and panic.

 

Oh my, I am sorry to hear this Tracy, especially since yesterday your tinnitus was mild.

 

@emmalee
Thank you, Emma.
Having a real tough time right now.
Feeling so awful.
Don’t know that I can do this anymore.

 

Try to remember @TracyJS that tinnitus fluctuates a lot in the early stages but this will improve with time.....

 

Going to PM you, Tracy.

 

@TracyJS I know. I was in the same place years ago. I just couldn't take those saying just don't think about it and the other usual stuff. I could not not think about it. It would take time for me to finally feel that I could leave the house. I had set backs and traumas. I didn't want to go on like that. It sort of just happened naturally I guess. Being a part of the world again.

Tinnitus that changes can be very difficult in the first years. Mine always and still stays the same loud screech. I would imagine if I had a quiet day having it come back would tear me down. But...then not having that I wonder if I would welcome the relief for a while.

Hope tomorrow is better for you....

 

@Michael Leigh
Thank you, Michael.
It’s awfully difficult to manage the fluctuations.

@Starthrower
I agree. When it’s loud and intrusive, how do you not not think about it. Yes, i have thought about that. It is difficult when it changes because you don’t know what to expect. Keeps the anxiety high with uncertainty. However, a milder day or even part of the day does give some relief. I’m sorry Yours is always a loud screech.

I had my tinnitus completely stop on its own for 6 hours once. That was over two months ago. Feel like sometimes I’m headed in the wrong direction.

 

It most certainly is @TracyJS for this reason it is advisable to try an antidepressant if your GP recommends it. It will act as a safety net, helping to prevent you from getting too down should low points arrive. An antidepressant can sometimes make tinnitus more intrusive but this is usually temporary.

 

I woke up this morning with extreme anxiety.
And tinnitus still loud.
I am I bad shape.
Holding on every day is getting harder.

 

Hi @TracyJS ,
Are you taking anything help your anxiety or CBT ?
Love glynis x

 

Glynis.
Tapering off Clonazepam. Almost done.
Afraid to take antidepressant.
No CBT yet. Don’t know if I can afford it.