Hi there, my name is Daniel Zuccarelli and I live in NJ just outside of Philadelphia. Interesting post for me to write. I've had Tinnitus for about 20 years now. First showed signs at about 18 after a particularly loud concert. At the time I had to jam my fingers in my ears and find a quiet corner and I could "kind of" hear a ringing. After a few more concerts and I felt like it might actually be a bit worse I got myself some molded ear plugs. As I got a bit older I started avoiding those loud concerts though the tinnitus tended to get a little worse and a little louder here and there. I carried the ear plugs everywhere and popped them in whenever I was in any situation where the noise was loud. Bars, sporting events, etc. Still, the tinnitus would occasionally get worse. I was able to deal with it for long stretches by using a ceiling fan at night. Then a waterfall machine. Then both. Then a sound machine. Then all 3. Eventually a masker. I went to a few Dr's over the years that told me everything from "don't worry about it it makes it worse" to "That's all in your head." So I stopped trying to get help, yet the sound would get worse. Eventually I could hear it even when sitting in a room watching TV at a pretty good volume. At that point I had been avoiding loud places whenever I could and wearing my molded earplugs when I couldn't. Researching tinnitus usually left me feeling defeated and thinking about it just seemed to make it louder, so even that I started to avoid. I'm now 37, and the tinnitus is worse than ever. It invades my day the second I wake up and doesn't cease until I got to bed, which I can't do until I'm absolutely exhausted because of the volume of ringing. I just had my first child, who's now 6 weeks old. Obviously I havent had much sleep lately but the sound has recently gotten worse again. I've heard horror stories of people having suicidal thoughts and after suffering with this for 20 years and it seemingly getting worse I'm starting to worry if I'll get to that point down the line. I finally know I need to push though the increase in attention my tinnitus gets when I focus on it and get some help. The downside is I have no idea where to start. I have booklets about Neuromonics and such but those seem like mostly junk science at best. Some people here seem to be able to craft good sounds if I know the frequency of my tinnitus, so that might be a better option. But my past experiences with Dr's in dealing with my tinnitus leaves me not even knowing who I should talk to about it. I feel pretty lost on all of it at the moment. Thanks for listening.