It's such a catch-22 and I'm going crazy trying to get a hold of this whole situation.
The more I try try to relax, the more I think "I need to lower this tinnitus spike! Will it go down this time? Did I mess myself up somehow and make it worse???"
What REALLY sucks is that a LOT of my stress comes from noise at work. Not loud noise, but annoying things. Like the guy that taps on his keyboard like he's trying to break it, or the woman cackling on the phone across the cubicle farm. I've gotten to the point where hearing almost ANYTHING coming from a human being at work stresses me out and brings out anger (that I keep inside). It might be because of this that I got the tinnitus in the first place. I was listening to white noise all day long. I didn't think it was too loud, but not I have tinnitus. Although my ENT thinks the tinnitus comes from slight hearing loss in my left ear that comes from a viral infection.
So I don't want to hurt my ears further by playing white noise to drown people out, but then I'm stressed hearing them and the STRESS spikes my tinnitus.
I'm just at a loss.
Thanks for any advice.
The more I try try to relax, the more I think "I need to lower this tinnitus spike! Will it go down this time? Did I mess myself up somehow and make it worse???"
What REALLY sucks is that a LOT of my stress comes from noise at work. Not loud noise, but annoying things. Like the guy that taps on his keyboard like he's trying to break it, or the woman cackling on the phone across the cubicle farm. I've gotten to the point where hearing almost ANYTHING coming from a human being at work stresses me out and brings out anger (that I keep inside). It might be because of this that I got the tinnitus in the first place. I was listening to white noise all day long. I didn't think it was too loud, but not I have tinnitus. Although my ENT thinks the tinnitus comes from slight hearing loss in my left ear that comes from a viral infection.
So I don't want to hurt my ears further by playing white noise to drown people out, but then I'm stressed hearing them and the STRESS spikes my tinnitus.
I'm just at a loss.
Thanks for any advice.