I Didn't Know My Own Strength

I had nowhere to turn had nowhere to go, lost sight of my dreams, i was lost in a never ending scream in my ears and head, lost sight of myself and cared nothing for anyone else, my life was over ... it was hell. One day not that long ago i decided to pick myself up and hold my head up high, i was not built to break ... yes i crashed down and i stumbled but i did not crumble, i was not built to break ... i didn't know my own strength, everyone told me things would get better and i was so pissed off hearing these words again and again, but guess what??? Tinnitus still remains in my life, but i will not crash down, and i will not stumble, and i certainly will not crumble... WHY ???? . ..because i know my own strength ... check out whitney,God bless and heal each and every one of us xx

 

Dear @carol kane

yes indeed, you have strenght in you!! We all do and I can't believe the stories of some of the people on here, it brings tears to my eyes sometimes...

I love your post... be happy and always remind yourself of this post!!

 

Yes. I didn't know my strength either. Survived already 9 1/2 months with this in my head. Unbelievable.
A relentless tone, 24/7/365, that cuts through everything. People cannot stand this noise for 5 seconds.
How long will I suffer from this? Another 30-40 years?
I am sad and exhausted. But here comes the BUT:
There are success stories on the internet. People cope with this.
Billie48 always says: Give time enough time. It took him two years to cope and write a success story.
I live my life, a sad life at the moment. Tears run over my face. But I don't want my family to cry.
So I cry for myself in silence - which I will never have again.
Sorry guys, but this was going through my head just in this moment.

 

Dear Martin, i'm so sorry to read your post, i know how this affliction can take your life from you, how it can make you depressed, and very worried about the future, and will it get worse? but you have survived 9.5 months and you will continue to survive. It's ok to cry, i often have to leave the room i'm in because i don't want my loved ones seeing me so upset, we will improve Martin and you will not have this for the next 30 or 40 years as they will have found something that can help us long before then... stay strong my friend we'll be ok in time.

 

Dear Carol. Thank you.
I know how difficult it is for us to stay positive.
We struggle, but we continue living for our loved ones and for ourselves.
And there will be light at the end of the tunnel, although it is a very long and dark tunnel.
Suffering will have an end and the sun will shine again for us.
Hugs, Martin

 

We're all so much stronger than we'll ever realize.
Good for you, Carol.

 

So true.