I Hate I Find Tinnitus Fascinating

I caused this to myself. I hate myself for it. But what I hate even more that the small scientist inside me finds this condition so fascinating.

I can't sleep well. Can't make music. I am angry, irritated, tired. I miss silent mornings. I miss silence.

Yet why still I find this beast inside my head so... interesting? How on earth does this sound come and go. Change tones. Change volume. Why there is no cure? So many questions.

So underrated condition.

 

Yep, you could easily become obsessed with tinnitus, but after some time it will just become boring. First 3 months I was monitoring my tinnitus at least 10 times everyday. Now I check it once in a week or so. And that's good, I feel much better.

 

I´ve been monitoring it every second for 4.5 years. Something must be wrong with me!

 

T is a problem with the brain. Human brain is the most complex object in the known universe.

 

It's fun when you realize palliative medicine formed a monopoly on hearing loss, tinnitus and noise pain and the reason there's not a cure is because sufferers are silent and don't lobby for research to advance.

 

I find it really interesting too! As well as evil and pointless but its very pointlessness is interesting. The thing that puzzles me the most is why some people find it so easy and why others find it so difficult, at the same loudness level. It suggests that might be true for every other physical health condition, such as chronic pain. Also how the f is the brain creating all this phantom noise? Why does the volume vary so much between individuals or even for one individual as well? Can you truly get this condition without any hearing loss? What is the connection with TMJ? I want to know!

 

Research would have been 20+ years in the future if it wasn't for TRT and Pawel Jastreboff's monopoly on the field.

Audiologist are Hearing aid salesmen, not doctors. Otologist are actual doctors who study the inner ear, what happened was hearing aid salesmen dominated a field that should have been treated as a science the entire time.

 

Monitoring for me is when I put my fingers to the ears a check the volume and pitch. I hope that you are not living 4,5 years with fingers in the ears

 

I don´t need to.

 

Can you only hear it with your ears plugged?

 

Most neurological conditions have no cure.

I did this for the first 2+ years. It was hell. Somehow I've gotten to the point where I can ignore it for extended periods of time, but when it's bad or spiking (like now) I go back to monitoring it.

 

I can hear it better with plugged ears. Normally my T is hissing, but when I plug my ears its more high pithced. But it used to be high pitched all the time and I could hear it even in a bus. But even then I think that it was moderate and not severe like T of some of other members.

 

3.6 months now with tinnitus... all the above feelings...