Last night was the usual ordeal - will I get to sleep? and when? and for how long? And how much med will I need? I explained to my wife what I was going through, but my wife just does not get it - only someone else who has this gets it. Finally I just started to cry, and cry, and cry. I cried for a long long time, really hard. My wife brought me a few Kleenexes but that did not help much. Finally I stopped crying and a little while after that I was so exhausted with a long day, and never getting enough sleep, and high amounts of med, finally I got to sleep. I am doing white noise/pink noise/CRT/music treatment, all of it, with +++meds. Today I am going to start listening to notched music for the entire day. I sleep always with "notched" music on. I cannot sleep at all unless there is CD of Restful Rain. The tinnitus just doesn't go away, constant whine at around 4000hz, plus a few other sounds that are fainter. Admittedly, in September it was just insane. It is getting a bit better, and I had a bit of hope 3 weeks ago, I actually slept through the night, but that improvement was short lived. I just get worse for no reason, there is no noise exposure and I am extremely careful with any sounds at all, even something like a door slamming shut, I cover my ears, and I always go around with a Bose headset. So I just cried and cried and cried. It felt a little better to get it out of my system, and possibly my wife might have a small clue about how dismal it is to have severe tinnitus. I imagine there are even people who are worse off than me, but probably not very many.