Sorry to post this kind of thing, but I firmly believe my battle with tinnitus will come to an end sometime in the near future, it has just progressed too far at this point. It has been a very hard 6 years indeed and I deserve credit for making this far, but surely this must end.
But before that happens I would like my life to have had some kind of positive impact, any ideas? Maybe donating to trust worthy charities? Or a worthy cause?
Thanks.
The strength of your character shines right through your post.
In your 6 years have suffered more than most people dying of terminal illness (not because they suffer less, but by definition their suffering is much shorter).
So here you are being brutally tortured to death by Tinnitus just like many others before you and you are still thinking of the ways to improve someone else's life.
I'm not sure how much you have left in the tank and unlike most, I will not advocate surviving at any cost.
Having been there myself, surviving without any quality of life is simply not enough.
You are probably aware of some ongoing trials, out of which the Susan Shore's device seems to be the most promising.
However the release timeline is less than clear at this point...
Either way, If I was in your predicament, I would try to hold off till more is known and make your final decision then (if you can find the strength).
I have a feeling that many members here are in similar situation
Should you decide to forge ahead with your plan regardless, you could maybe try to raise awareness about a horrifying condition that most people never even heard off, but for most of them, this level of pure evil is so inconceivable, they simply wouldn't be able to fully comprehend it.
There is a already short documentary out there following another brave lady by the name Gaby Olthuis, whom had decided to end the misery on her own terms..
That one should be mandatory to watch in every high school on the planet..but it isn't.
Also remember that you live in a country, where bureaucracy and the current belief system does not allow for you to experience a dignified exit with Tinnitus, so you might have to travel abroad and/or jump through some hoops.
I would advice you to think long and hard if you are about to do it yourself, because the very last thing you want is to get maimed or crippled on top of your Tinnitus, should your attempt fail.
Either way I wish you peace and the best of luck with whatever you decide.