- Jul 8, 2019
- 3
- Tinnitus Since
- 6/2019
- Cause of Tinnitus
- Unknown, possibly loud noise exposure
Hello, everyone. It's been a little over a week since my tinnitus developed, and after my second big spike, I felt I should reach out to those who have experience with this sort of thing beyond the time I've endured. I would also like to mention, I'm still waiting to see a doctor about this. Another mention: I tried to bring a clinical tone of some sort, or maturity, into my text to match the situation others may be facing and fearing. Above most of this, I want everyone who is suffering from the trouble I have faced off with for this short length of time to feel safe. However, in this, there is both positivity and negativity, mostly because I wanted to unload and writing gives me that opportunity. I don't want to focus on just my fear of this possible fate.
To start with, I had tinnitus much, much before the recent weeks. I don't have a definite date for it, but it was at least 2 years ago. I never thought it was a problem, because it was always very faint. In fact, I only remembered I had it after the start of my experience, 8-10 days ago. I feel it's important to preface it with this: I have had tinnitus, of some sort, for a very long time, but it wasn't at all dangerous. In actuality, it was so quiet it was soothing.
I don't have too clear a memory of the start of that day, but sometime during it, I had my headphones on, and I was watching a video. I would like to mention, just for my own integrity, around 5 months ago I started to monitor and moderate the volume of videos. Not by much, but still. Either way, I paused my video, I believe because I wanted to distinguished whether the ringing was part of the video, or something in my room. Needless to say, I ended my, "escapade" with the revelation that the sound was sticking to me, like some type of tiny music box that forgot it plays music.
After that, I discussed on multiple different days, with multiple different family members, what to do. The only solace I could gain to help me through this situation was articles I stumbled upon on Google and, above all, interaction with someone and telling them about it. The more I self-diagnosed, the more I feared the condition. The more I thought about it, the more my anger welled up against my willingness to let it happen. Yet, throughout this, I've come across so many positive things in my life, that helped me when I felt sad, and gave me the peace of mind to cry it all out with a smile on my face.
Now, this is beginning to sound like I'm just putting myself up on a pedestal, and patting myself on the back for breathing air every day. Maybe that's what it is.
I found sites like TinnitusTalk and helpful tips for dealing with such constant ringing/hissing(?), and they've really calmed me down. I want to help others in such a way that soothes those effected by this slaughter of peace and quiet, but I also want to be comforted as well by others who have gone through and are going through the same situation I am. So, I signed up, and gave myself the opportunity.
I may use this site for, say, fifteen minutes total after clicking, "Create Thread." That's just how it is. But, after such a wake up call to my health, and the hazards that come with carelessly running wild in the fields of blissful ignorance being unpredictable and merciless, I don't want to leave someone in a deeper ditch once I crawl out of mine. I want what came around to me to go around the masses.
I can only hope for the best for my case, not that I wanna jinx it or anything. I've accepted that hope is the best I can manage for something like tinnitus. Hope is all I have to help it, but I don't plan to stop hoping if unexpected blows come to pass. If I do, then so be it, but I don't want other people to relinquish their hope in the face of seemingly overwhelming odds. If I can form a sentence I'm confident will help, I'll do it. Thanks for listening to me, this was much longer than I thought it would be.
To start with, I had tinnitus much, much before the recent weeks. I don't have a definite date for it, but it was at least 2 years ago. I never thought it was a problem, because it was always very faint. In fact, I only remembered I had it after the start of my experience, 8-10 days ago. I feel it's important to preface it with this: I have had tinnitus, of some sort, for a very long time, but it wasn't at all dangerous. In actuality, it was so quiet it was soothing.
I don't have too clear a memory of the start of that day, but sometime during it, I had my headphones on, and I was watching a video. I would like to mention, just for my own integrity, around 5 months ago I started to monitor and moderate the volume of videos. Not by much, but still. Either way, I paused my video, I believe because I wanted to distinguished whether the ringing was part of the video, or something in my room. Needless to say, I ended my, "escapade" with the revelation that the sound was sticking to me, like some type of tiny music box that forgot it plays music.
After that, I discussed on multiple different days, with multiple different family members, what to do. The only solace I could gain to help me through this situation was articles I stumbled upon on Google and, above all, interaction with someone and telling them about it. The more I self-diagnosed, the more I feared the condition. The more I thought about it, the more my anger welled up against my willingness to let it happen. Yet, throughout this, I've come across so many positive things in my life, that helped me when I felt sad, and gave me the peace of mind to cry it all out with a smile on my face.
Now, this is beginning to sound like I'm just putting myself up on a pedestal, and patting myself on the back for breathing air every day. Maybe that's what it is.
I found sites like TinnitusTalk and helpful tips for dealing with such constant ringing/hissing(?), and they've really calmed me down. I want to help others in such a way that soothes those effected by this slaughter of peace and quiet, but I also want to be comforted as well by others who have gone through and are going through the same situation I am. So, I signed up, and gave myself the opportunity.
I may use this site for, say, fifteen minutes total after clicking, "Create Thread." That's just how it is. But, after such a wake up call to my health, and the hazards that come with carelessly running wild in the fields of blissful ignorance being unpredictable and merciless, I don't want to leave someone in a deeper ditch once I crawl out of mine. I want what came around to me to go around the masses.
I can only hope for the best for my case, not that I wanna jinx it or anything. I've accepted that hope is the best I can manage for something like tinnitus. Hope is all I have to help it, but I don't plan to stop hoping if unexpected blows come to pass. If I do, then so be it, but I don't want other people to relinquish their hope in the face of seemingly overwhelming odds. If I can form a sentence I'm confident will help, I'll do it. Thanks for listening to me, this was much longer than I thought it would be.
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