Thanks for the kind words Markku. You are my friend for life. Being part of this forum has been a rewarding experience for me. I've met lots a great people and learned lots along the way. Here's what happened recently in a nutshell. I've been a sailor for years. Turns out it's a great activity for T sufferes for several reasons. The wind noise masks the T and the mental activity takes your mind away from it. I have used sailing as my "medicine" for several years. In May I went on a 2 week sailing trip and had no internet access for the duration. About a week into the trip I noticed I was going for several hours at time without any perception of "it". By the end of the trip I realized that I was no longer thinking about it nearly as much. I was spending whole days without noticing it. Long story short, when I returned home I was a little hesitant to start back into my routine, get up in morning, check the forum, catch up on all the posts, write something and then ponder the whole thing all day. So I spent a couple months away from the forum and all tinnitus related stuff. Things have continued to improve. I can go most of the day without thinking about at all. I still have it at night. I still listen to the sound tracks with earbuds. But I no longer need any sleep meds. (after several years of Ambien nightly) The T is not gone, but I don't care anymore. So I guess the good news is, in the last few years I have gone from, well, basically suicidal in the beginning, to someone who doesn't really consider it to be much more than a nuisance. I really hope this provides some hope for the future for those of you who are going through the rough times now. It can get better. This forum and others have helped me get through some really rough times and I hope you all get as much from it as I have. But now I think it's time for me to say goodbye, for a while anyway, so, Thank you all, and Goodbye.