The tinnitus is mild but constant. My brain is always searching for it and just won't let go and im always terrified and stressed about it. Even when distracted part of my brain is still searching constantly, even if i cant find it. I just can't accept my hearing having flaws. When trying to sleep and mask it i can still feel the activity in my brain and also starting to notice more things sounding just wrong, like fans making pure tone noises. Usually can get to sleep but wake up after a couple hours and just spend the rest of the night craving silence. Had a couple nightmares early on hearing the noise. Every waking moment i am restless and feel relief is never coming. I dont know how to cope or relax. I dont do very many activites, before i was just very happy reading sleeping or playing video games alone in silence.