As I've tried the best of my ability to maintain a normal healthy lifestyle with my hearing issue, it's only been a struggle that has worsened within these 4 months. It was 4 months ago where I could relate to many of you on this site where I had loud high-pitched ringing in my ears from the two incidents that took place then....but ever since a week or two ago, I've completely lost my sense of life. 4 months ago I still felt like myself, I was just down/somewhat depressed then, couldn't focus, lost enjoyment in hanging out with friends. The biggest thing then was I still had some sense of myself, but I was just so angry and felt so sad because something was going on with my hearing. But as the days move on, I always felt like I was losing something. It's something that I have no idea where to pick my finger on. All I can really say is that I feel like I have no emotion towards anything anymore, my cognitive thinking is terrible now (always forgetting things, ADHD like symptoms, not always able to form thoughts well), and I'm even having sexual health issues. I was having issues with only a few of these things 4 months ago when my hearing started to change but they weren't nearly as bad as they are now. I would say they were at a 2 or 3 out of 10 then and now it's at like an 8 out of 10. Everyone I've spoken to claims that some these problems are most likely occurring from being in a deep depression but I have to disagree with them. Even doctors. I'm doing everything that should be helping someone get out of a depression somewhat like eating healthy, exercising a lot, meditating, taking cold showers, eating Turmeric, taking supplements. I mean, I sure do feel good from doing all these things but the biggest problem is that it still always feels like I'm completely missing something I've always had with my hearing. My hearing completely changed over these 4 months and it frustrates me so much when someone asks me how exactly has your hearing changed. All I can say is it's like my hearing is numb and sounds are not in my head like they used to be. It really feels like I have new terrible hearing. I feel like a Grandpa who can't hear people speak to them anymore. Trust me, I know what it's like to have healthy hearing. I was basically on another planet last year at this time with my life/hearing compared to where I'm at now. I'd like to look at the positive side of things in life and I'm trying my absolute best to keep moving on in life but there really is something wrong with my hearing that is causing these problems I'm having. I never encountered any of these problems in my past life and it's made me extremely curious as to why these have all shown up since I felt like my hearing started to change. It really feels like my brain is dead. Exercising is the only thing that sort of takes the edge off of feeling terrible. I don't want to be taking anti-depressants either. I never thought I'd have to be involved with those things in my life because never did I feel so terrible in my life until now. I feel like I'm completely stuck with everything going on. It doesn't make sense how I can still hear sounds especially music yet I don't feel anything from it anymore. I always did before and ever since I felt my hearing change, I lost that ability. I can make myself feel better at times but my hearing is nothing compared to what it was even 4 months ago. I have to disagree with anyone who tells me that music will sound better when I can make myself feel better. Music is supposed to make you feel better. Your hearing is supposed to make you feel things. Hearing is not just hearing a noise, it involves a significant amount of neurotransmitters in its sound processing. I really hate posting so much on this site because I want to help people out on this site more than me complaining about my problems but we all need to come together and realize what Tinnitus really is.