I am here. 5 months in, i think i am doing a lot better but still can't help over the fact that life is not the same anymore... I try to be social but in reality I have very little to say to people and have become somewhat antisocial. Before I was quite eccentric and on the assault but now I am VERY reserved and cautious. Everything is just slower and I feel like there is no life inside me... I also can't help the fact that my body is in stress. It sweats more and there is no sense of relaxation... I am always on alert. I talk quietly now and frequently give off sighs. it takes time to get out of bed and i feel like its such a shame. The hunger to go out and conquer the world is just not even close to what it used to be.