This Is How It Feels to Be Lonely

After Craig Gill committed suicide because of tinnitus, this song kind of took on a whole new meaning for me. It was originally about depression, but I suppose the message is exactly the same. Nowadays, I can’t help but relate this song to tinnitus every time I hear it.

To those who don’t know, Craig Gill was the drummer in this band.

Inspiral Carpets - This Is How It Feels

Husband don't know what he's done
Kids don't know what's wrong with mum
She can't say, they can't see
Putting it down to another bad day
Daddy don't know what he's done
Kids don't know what's wrong with mum
So this is how it feels to be lonely
This is how it feels to be small
This is how it feels when your word means nothing at all
Black car drives through the town
Some guy from the top estate
Left a note for a local girl
And yet he had it all on a plate
So this is how it feels to be lonely (feels to be lonely)
This is how it feels to be small (feels to be small)
This is how it feels when your word means nothing at all
Husband don't know what he's done
Kids don't know what's wrong with mum
She can't say, they can't see
Putting it down to another bad day
So this is how it feels to be lonely (feels to be lonely)
This is how it feels to be small (feels to be small)
This is how it feels when your word means nothing at all
So this is how it feels to be lonely (feels to be lonely)
This is how it feels to be small (feels to be small)
This is how it feels when your word means nothing at all
Nothing at all
Nothing at all

 

How it feels to be lonely? I know what that feels like....couple of people know I am struggling at the moment and yet noone of thos people has called or wrote me in over 3 weeks. Yes, I feel very lonely. And people may wonder why I struggle with my T......because I have little to no support from the people around me, that's why!

The only real support I get is on here.

 

I’m really sorry to hear this Danish Girl, but sometimes I think it’s more ignorance and a lack of understanding more than anything else. Have you tried reaching out to people?

It’s not nice to feel isolated, so understand that everybody here knows how you feel and you will always be heard.

 

Yes, I have also thought that. I do know deep inside that they probably DO care, but try to remember that they may struggle themselves with the obstacles thay may arise in a daily life with work, children ect.

I am trying to muster up the courage to reach out, especially to my mother who I felt have been negligent of me lately. I want to have a talk with her about our relationsship, but I feel it is hard having to start that conversation......But it must be done sooner or later.

 

Songs can really get the message across how we feel but also can be a great mood lifter..
Tinnitus can take away your confidence and self worth but I love playing Power Ballads and soon singing around the house.
@TheDanishGirl we are always about xxx
love glynis

 

Thank you sweet Glynis! Yes, some happy songs or power ballads can alway lift the mood a bit.

 

Hey DanishGirl, I hope you are doing well and just wanted to say that my family is the same way. My parents really ignore my T as being any kind of obstacle...and at times would invite me to restaurants where the music is very loud and people are sometimes dancing on the balcony...it's really surreal to go to these places, but I sometimes either ignore their insensitivity or chalk it up as ignorance. They really don't know what they "don't know", so their actions are just the reality of things. I have to constantly remind my mother to stop yapping on the phone so loudly when in the car next to me...but she just ignores it and thinks I am being sensitive, in these cases I just wear ear plugs.

My family completely ignores the fact that I have T and 99% of the time, the struggles are done alone and the coping is done alone. Sometimes I feel the only thing that understands me better than myself is my T as it really sure knows how to bug me and scare me at the same time. It unlocks my biggest fears and preys on it; but one should always remind oneself that life is always so beautiful and so great...I don't dwell on the bad things for long when flowers are blossoming outside and there are puppies being born at every given second! =]

 

this song relates to my meaningless life.

 

https://www.theguardian.com/society/2017/may/05/inspiral-carpets-drummer-craig-gill-inquest-tinnitus

 

It's so sad to hear about people ending their life to a condition that now needs a cure more than anything.
Life is loud and devices used more with earphones and headphones by young children with no warning or awareness of hearing damadge or tinnitus.
It needs total awareness around the world.
love glynis

 

I still cant believe people are not being taught this. We learn about STDs, AIds, Cancer, Diabetes, but why this? This is something that truly comes out of the deepest nightmares.