Vacation From Hell

I used to 'dare' by T & H in order to go out to 're-enjoy' my life doing things I used to like to do. It was very hard at first and I was always worrying if things would get worst. But eventually it got better and better. At least I know I was winning the psychological battle by not letting T & H dictate my life. Everyone will have to decide when he or she will be ready to start your 'D Day' again the T tyranny to claim back your life. But it should be your goal to 'strike back' at T at some point when you think you are ready mentally and physically.

 

While I'm still in a not so depressed mood (my mood can change at any moment nowadays) and before I go home to grayness again I want to share with you guys some pics from my vacation cycling rides:

Multiple albums by day:
https://imgur.com/a/lBxXF?gallery
https://imgur.com/a/pn8k3?gallery
https://imgur.com/a/HODtn?gallery
https://imgur.com/a/YdWVX?gallery
https://imgur.com/a/riTCz?gallery

 

Dan, what is psychological T? I am struggling myself about this. I have some better days behind me since I had some days off work. T is always the same, but I can go through my day more or less. But tomorrow is working again, pressuring customers, pressuring managers and so on. I could even retire (with 46) or take a package. But I fear sitting at home listening whole day to my T.
My T was brought up by stress, maybe even by my work. But I don't know. It just started in a stressful moment.
A Neurologist once told me, as soon as I have my burnout/depression under control, symptoms (including T) will disappear. But I fear, whatever I do regarding my job, life etc. T will not disappear, if psychologically caused or whatever the reason was.
I guess, once you have this BS, it will stay - until a drug is found.
So what is psychological T or T with psychological origin?

 

Psychological T means, in laymans terms that your T is being generated by your limbic system and not your auditory brain parts. It means the signal got trapped in the limbic loop-
Insular-amygdala-parahippocampus.....on repeat mode.
Neurologically the brain is Ok, but psycho-emotional areas are still compromised.
Your fear plays a role to fuel that loop. Your neurologist might have a point.