What Has Tinnitus Taught You?

That you can everyday be torn apart internally and 2 thoughts: desire to live and temptation to end it all through suicide constantly fight with each other in my head

 

Those are my thoughts as well.

 

You never realize how important something is to you, until you lose it.. in this case: being free from tinnitus :/

 

That you can wreck someone's life and get away with it easy. Just blast their ears and give them tinnitus, just remember to wear earplugs while you're doing it.

(I'm not suggesting you do it... It's just what happened to me.)

 

I've learned resilience, more than anything else.With tinnitus, you wither learn how to be resilient, or you're screwed. One day, all is well, and then suddenly your body is making this sound, and it's entirely nerve-wracking. And you think your life is over. For me, when the tinnitus happened, it was right up there with the absolute worst feelings about life I've ever had. Then 5-6 months later, spring started to emerge, and the seasons changed, and while the tinnitus was still there, I started to realize I was going to be ok, that life was still worth living. And that's an important life lesson, because life is entirely unpredictable, and full of change. So yea, tinnitus has taught me to be resilient.

 

Nothing new. Life is a bitch and what is amusing can harm you - I already knew it before I get T.

Well... maybe one thing: that modern medicine is totally helpless when problem is related to nerves and brain.

 

Don't take silence for granted. When it's gone for ever, it's the one thing I'd say I miss most.

 

Tinnitus has taught me how fragile we are. It has taught me to appreciate every good day I have. It has taught me how my friendships were often based on alcohol and now these are fading away (as drink affects my TTS). It has shown me how little sleep I can have and still function. Before I slept like a log for 8 hours at a time now I'm lucky to get 3 or 4 hours in a night. It has also shown me how ineffective modern medicine is for anything neurological or brain based.

 

I learned that
1. for no known reason you can turn from a perfectly sound and happy guy into a wreck by something which cannot be seen, measured or controlled.

2. live is unfair.

3. human suffering seems to be infinite.

 

Hell can not be worse.

 

Life is unfair. So unfair.

 

I'm no longer afraid of dying.
To be more empathic towards other people that suffer.
That doctors, ENT's know nothing about Tinnitus.
How brutal life can be.
I never take anything for granted again.

 

Strange how that works. I used to care about people so much - now I'm a selfish monster who only has the emotional energy for herself. Just barely.

 

that your life can go 100 to 0 real quick

 

That life sucks

 

Hahaha, when I am really really mad at someone for something serious I sometimes think about this. I imagine putting him in my basement and placing big firecrackers next to his ears to ruin his life.

 

I have so much empathy for those who look ok on the outside but are struggling on the inside.

We look fine on the outside however people don't understand how we feel and what a burden it can be to us.

I've learned don't sweat the small stuff and don't take your health for granted!

I've learned so much about the ear! I didn't know how much our vestibular system can't take a toll on our body.

 

My tinnitus has taught me that the sun really does come out tomorrow. In my darkest days, I was really ready to cash in and convinced I would not survive and here I am 5 months later and things are turning around and while I may not really be getting better my ability to cope has gotten better and life is good again.

Never Give Up

 

oh well, I am trying ginger and turmeric this week. It is for inflammation of what, I don't know. ear ache. tinnitus.

 

T has taught me that I can handle way more thrown at me than I thought possible beforehand.

 

I learned that I can handle a lot less than I thought I could beforehand...

 

You're still here, right?

 

Not sure I would still be here if I were to live in the United States and have an easy access to guns.

 

A gun is the only way to end things?

I am not denying the extent of your suffering, but the reality is that you haven't jumped off a roof, hung yourself or overdosed on anything. And you should be proud of that.

 

I don't know, I don't feel very proud lol... another thing tinnitus has taught me is that I'm too much of a coward to end it when it's time. *shrug*

 

I want it to be reliable and painless. I would not want to have brain or liver damage. Even a gun is not reliable enough - one can survive a shot to the head. You need to use two guns. I can get access to a gun at a shooting range, but they won't give one two guns at the same time...

There are surprisingly few ways that satisfy both of these restrictions (i.e., reliability and painlessness...)

 

I think that this is the man who ought to be proud: Suicide by DIY guillotine and an ingenious timing device.

Unfortunately, I am not good when it comes to building things with my hands.

 

That is rather impressive. Which country do you live in btw?

 

Canada

 

Are you masking regularly?