I have always been very interested in music. I have made music and have even released some tracks on a record. However I have not been to many live music events because I have a hard time socializing etc. I had never been to an event without earplugs. I havent been able to make music lately, and have been feeling very lonely. I started trying to go to events locally in order to feel better and get inspired. I went to 3 events at a bar, and they were surprisingly quiet. I did not even need earplugs at all, the music was barely talking level. Then the next time I went, but didn't remember my earplugs. I thought it would be fine, everybody else does it? and it had been quiet before. Not this time. It started out quiet but at some point they cranked it, but beyond that, when I was watching them perform, a rediculously loud sound got played (it was live improvisation). I felt it against my whole body and especially face, it wasnt a bassy sound, it was actually quite high pitched, so it is not normal to feel sounds of that pitch. When I woke up in the morning I was nearly completely deaf in the ear that was closest to the speaker, and had a loud ringing in that ear, within 48 hours my hearing seemed to return to normal, but the ringing stayed. Believe it or not, since I had never been to a gig without earplugs, I thought this was just the ringing in the ears people talk about after shows, I didn't worry. I noticed that ear felt numb or heavy, so I just used headphones without the phone on that ear. I started noticing that I was sensitive to moderate sounds in that ear (like using cutlery) but just hoped it would heal. Eventually I started noticing that I was hearing high pitched sounds in sounds where I didnt before, for instance, beyond the regular tinnitus if I listen to water boiling in an open pot, or cars driving by in the distance, they now produce a high pitched sound where they didn't before. I also notice resonances at certain points in music, especially in tv, if people are talking and there is a string section in the background, I don't hear the actual sound of the strings well, I hear a louder "resonant" sound like a ringing, but modulated. This freaked me out so I googled, and realized that having tinnitus, and these symptoms after a concert 2 weeks is not normal. I read up what can cure tinnitus, so I started taking zinc, magnesium, coq10, copper, vitd etc. I've seen doctor and ENT and audiologist, all have just basically said i have to live with it...devastating. 5 months later no improvement. Still have the constant tinnitus in the one ear, which can not be masked by sounds, as well as sensitivity to sound in that ear, as well as heavyness/numbness/tightness in that ear. I can't believe it, this is too much. Now music just makes me sad, now when i go outside and i see construction workers wearing hearing protection I just get this sick feeling. It is too much. Now i'm in constant fear of it getting worse, now my favorite thing in life is ruined.